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paintinginthewin
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Date: October 17, 2016 10:39PM
Deliberately, pulled down past my waist over eddie bauer joggers
With a t shirt over it... I got 3 sizes of the dark brown factory seconds @ a dollar 99 each and what I really like is the way the largest stretch longest and the darker color, not the garment white defines my -- and hips. I really messed that up wearing garments half way through college. That poor garment wearees` white midline stripe was missing the opportunity to pull sleek or fuzzy assorted flattering colours across all her layers voluptuous or sleek.
Plus, she can`t ever coordinate her panties with anything but the whites of her eyes. That reminds me predators id prey because when you`re afraid all they see is the whites of your eyes because your eyes are so wide... so coordinating with the whites of your eyes defies survival. (That`s why my mom always told me "____ don`t let them see you're scared, it just eggs them on.")
And the garments are one more abuse reinactment because in central cali wearing them publically, you're setting yourself up for ridicule...which enhances hypervigilance, and experiencing public hazing,or ridicule, or worry wariness once you experienced it, & each time you return on the scene or situation still wearing garments beCause joseph's-mormon-gawd ordered it.
Wearing garments Just like in abuse, you are trapped, an joseph's-mormon-gawd traps such as:" cover your skin or sinful," so shame resonates, such as is anchored in lds temple annointing cerapemony(spelling problem oops.) Such a surprize to have them by surprize insist one be naked and have others touch one, could definitely shock - splinter a new stylin self via oil naked annointing,or shock stun emotion-disjointing they call a temple annointing, to each new inniate by ceremony. I think this anchors shame via ceremony triggering shock so shame is anchored to your skin ( which you need as a human) and is linked to the garment physically via this innitiation. Which for some facilitates a change of identity a grafting of personality via the naked stranger touch annointing ceremony /
& You see josephs mormin gawds unpredictabilty unkindness terror provoking you know joseph`s-mormon-gawd's mean, look what he did at the surprize get naked be touched or don't get married today temple ceremony! And to lots wife, to emma, and to Laban murdered for the stupid book come on creator if the universe would have a xerox -so he was just being mean. Obviously, why else would he make me or anyone wear garments? In hindsight its clear that This gawd`s not safe, and his underware is not safe. Joseph`s-mormon-gawd of this world does mean s### so that makes sense..just like joseph`s-mormon-gawwd allowing abuse or neglect/ total trigger.
So garment shame resonates like a harp reveberates when a note struck harmonics sing it resonateswith inner shame and self blame. A separate shame, a situation with blame trapped in a past memory like a whisper of wind it rides across your skin an involuntary shudder as the garment clings to your skin again. Oh, I am so glad for my spaghetti strap dark brown camis now!
So warriness once ridiculed wraring garments, which enhances use of involntary defense mechanisms. So a catch 22 is garments making you more unsafe yetgarments are supposed to make you safer. Mind ####
If you see her again at your gym, don't tell her something is making her ugly, limiting her choices to coordinate with the iris, not the whites of her eyes.......hey, Did I tell you about the time I ordered the weight machines that coordinated with my eyes? This garment powerless ness makes us over react I think, um looking back. Yeah.
I would never say one thing to a california mormon whose garments were showin', never accentuate that, activate or participate albeit indirectly in triggering a temple-imposed self back to the front of somebody else. She was at the gym. Her identity was at the track, pointing out what was showing on her back just slaps or slips or switches that temple imposed identity fragment right back up front again. I dont believe in mormonism, I wouldn't do that to somebody Even if the clothes on their back look ugly.
Edited 8 time(s). Last edit at 10/18/2016 09:07AM by paintinginthewin.