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jefecito
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Date: January 06, 2015 05:13PM
Sorry to hear about this, shg. You are a great kid. Anyone your age who has the integrity and diligence to look into mormonism and accept it as a fraud while living in a TBM family is a person I admire. Consider yourself lucky that you've put yourself on the right track now, before wasting your time on a mission and before getting married. Even adults get stuck in family situations with TBMs. I am, since my wife and one of my children are still in the church. What you are going through is exactly how the cult intended it. They want it to be painful to leave the church so that people are afraid to do it. In time, this is going to work out.
Maybe you can try something like this with your parents:
- ask them about what they think trust is and why it is important to relationships.
- point out that trust is based on more than whether people are telling the truth. It's about safety. Can I trust the other person to not hurt me? If not, I have to take a step back from that person. I can only open myself up to them to the degree that I feel safe.
- talk about what type of behaviors could erode trust. Lying, abuse, shaming, controlling, violations of privacy, breaking commitments, apathy towards the other person, failure to listen, unfair treatment, ridicule, different world views, manipulation, exploitation, etc. Anything that says another person cannot accept you just as you are.
- point out that there is a breakdown of trust going on in the relationship with them and that it's a two way street.
- ask if they want you to trust them, because if they do, then maybe you guys need to talk about which of those trust eroding behaviors is causing you not to trust them. Tell them how their behavior is hurting you and say how you're going to have to withdraw and not be your true self around them. How you will have to look for the emotional support we all need from other sources if you can't get it from them. It's not a threat, it's just that you need support. You would like their emotional support, but if they can't give it, you will have to get it from somewhere.
- ask if they would trust you more if you pretended to go along with how they view the world, or if you openly expressed your thoughts and feelings. Which would be healthier? How can they expect you to be authentic in a threatening environment?
- you might ask how serious they are about kicking you out. Tell them it feels to you more like an extreme manipulation to control your behavior than something they would actually do. And that is because it is illegal to abandon a minor. Tell them you asked around and found that out.
http://blogs.findlaw.com/law_and_life/2013/05/can-parents-kick-teens-out-of-their-home.html- ask what they think would really be the best way to handle the situation with the porn (this can go different ways depending on whether they know you don't share their mormon beliefs or not). How can both sides work it out in a way that builds trust? I think it's best to just come clean and tell them what you don't believe anymore. "I want to tell you about how my beliefs are evolving as I get more information. Can I trust you to handle that?"
- try to do all of this in a laid-back, non-threatening way. Not accusing them, just telling them how you feel about it. If you see them getting defensive, say that you are not blaming anyone, just telling them how you feel. "We have a problem because of how I am feeling about xxxxx, and I wonder if you can help me with that." Keep reminding them you are not blaming them for anything.
- use notes if you have to, to remember everything you want to say.
- don't have any expectations that this discussion will improve anything. If they aren't even capable of having the conversation, write them a note and tell them how much it hurts that they can't even discuss the issues with you. TBMs go crazy thinking they are losing loved ones. It will be a great outcome if they can come to terms with the fact that you aren't going to follow the path they have in mind for you.
These are just the ideas I had. Ignore it if you don't think it fits your situation. Best of luck, guy. Sexual attractions and masturbation are normal. It is the demonizing of what is natural that is unhealthy. If you are going to really read the porn recovery book(s) you may want to balance that, privately, with some reading from a different point of view.
Edited 2 time(s). Last edit at 01/06/2015 05:27PM by jefecito.