Posted by:
Tal Bachman
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Date: February 21, 2015 09:05AM
It hit me about three months ago: the heartache of my divorce was gone, and it won't come ever back. And all the old church issues were long gone.
I felt good. I had a new project I was throwing myself into, new friends, new hope, new duds, a new place to live, and even a new flame who adored me as much as I adored her. After having felt so broken for so long, I now dared to hope I had become a "new and improved" version of myself.
In all that newness, only one vestige of the Old Me remained: Hugo cologne. The blue stuff in the clear bottle. I'd found it one day in a mall in Ventura, California, not long after it came out when I was still a Mormon. After a two hour smell test which included dozens of other colognes, it beat out all the competition, so I got it. Over the following months and years, it's sharp, fresh, clean smell just became part of my thing.
But now...it seemed wrong. It was Old Me. I needed New Me. What cologne was New Me? I had no idea, but I needed it to just...I don't know...represent a break with my past. When I smelt the Hugo, in the back of my head it was like: "remember? You're the sap who believed Joseph Smith's lies for so long...and who pined for the impossible for so long...that was you. Ha ha ha".
It was clear - I needed a new smell, one that said, "you are New and Improved now, strong and experienced, hurtling toward a happy future, always looking ahead!".
I began like I had nearly two decades earlier: extensive smell testing at malls in my spare time. I used a seven point rating scale, and ranked and archived each sample (I used the cologne sample papers and ziplocs). I supplemented my testing by devouring information about how colognes and perfumes are made, watching documentaries, reading books and articles, and listening to and reading interviews with the world's top perfumers.
After two months, I had smelled - literally - several hundred colognes. Only a few were bad. Most ranged from good to very good, and a few were excellent (recipients of the much-coveted "7" rating). My Love Goddess especially liked Armani "Eau Pour Homme", Hermes "Terre", and Chanel "Bleu". But to my great frustration, none of them smelled like "New Me". They smelled like....someone else. Wearing them on trial days, although I am embarrassed to admit it, left me feeling like I was wearing someone else's underpants, shirt, and pants, and using their name. It was weird.
Anyway, stumped, I decided to try to create my own cologne using essential oils. Like Jerry Lewis's "Nutty Professor" in his chemistry lab, I spent hours mixing different combinations, keeping detailed notes, trying to get my concoctions exactly right. I needed "New Me". I got fairly close a few times; but in the end, all I got was "Not Me".
So my question is:
Are there any amazing, unique colognes anyone can (seriously) recommend for me, given the dynamics I've mentioned above?
Thanks!
Best Wishes,
New Me