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metatron
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Date: February 27, 2015 05:48PM
It just hit me how that scripture makes no sense, and the more you think about it, the less sense it makes. Whatever your definition of "grace," in a religious context or any other, there can't be any "grace" in your life, if you are constantly worried about whether or not you have done "all that you can do."
Here's what I mean by grace: "Grace: A relative lack of anxiety and/or emotional struggle, i.e., not sweating bullets, not shitting bricks." In the religious context, if "God" or "The Savior" or some other supernatural being pays for your "sins," then you don't have to sweat it; Jesus has got that "sin" thing covered. Just relax.
And what the hell is being "saved?" There must be a gazillion different theological definitions floating around, and it's not even clear to me if Mormonism EVER EVEN DEFINED IT, which is another thing making my brain hurt.
"...after all that you can do."??? How does anybody ever know if they have done all that they can do?
I am 52 years old, have been clean out of the MORG for 21 years, and I still am haunted in the evenings, when I am dog tired, by the thought I HAVE NOT DONE ENOUGH TODAY. I wish I could be free from that thought. There is a rare evening in which I am free from it, but there are still times when I am not.
So now you get the picture. Throughout my youth and into my adult life, I was one of those people who never was sure if I was "worthy." And as I mentioned, there is a form of this "worthiness anxiety" that often haunts me today. Maybe that's not how it is for everybody, but for me, this scripture is a total mind fuck.
I got real clear about this today, while listening to a podcast, so, credit where credit is due: Infants on Thrones. And their parody of the CES fireside is really funny too.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 02/27/2015 05:52PM by metatron.