Posted by:
randyj
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Date: March 02, 2015 11:06PM
...for two main reasons. First, my father was a know-it-all who liked to think he was the smartest man on earth, and his attitude rubbed off on me and my siblings. Second, I was from the "mission field," as opposed to being from the Mormon corridor. My parents didn't raise me to go on a mission, and I wasn't intimidated into going, like so many of the BIC guys were. So I thought I was just a little bit superior.
Third, I was raised to work hard and take on responsibilities from a very young age. Throughout my childhood and my life in general, I was always picked by someone or other to be a leader over something, even though I didn't feel like that was my persona. I guess I just have a certain look, or give off a certain vibe which causes people to mistakenly believe that I'm more capable of doing things or running things than the average person. So that situation probably made me seem like a jerk too.
I was also pretty much a rule-following straight arrow, so I guess that contributed to my jerkiness too. I had problems with a couple of my early missionary companions because I was too straight arrow, too take-charge, and too condemning of less-than-expected performance. But about halfway through my mission, I had mellowed out and matured, and I was easier to get along with later on. So in that regard, maybe my mission experience was good for helping me mature and get along better with people.
The two things I regret most about my mission, other than being a jerk at times: first, I regret just knocking on peoples' doors and bothering them about religion. It's such a stupid, annoying thing to do. I mean, nobody likes it when JWS knock on your door, so we Mormons should have realized that nobody liked us either. Most Australians are so laid back and satisfied with their lot in life already. I feel bad for spending two years trying to turn otherwise happy people into obedient cult followers.
My other big regret is not doing more sightseeing etc. For instance, my last four months, I lived less than an hour from a national park with rainforests and spectacular waterfalls, and I didn't see it.