Posted by:
lastofthewine
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Date: April 14, 2015 12:18PM
So, I'm on my way to check myself into the psych ward for a spell. If any of you start having convincing thoughts about cruising the afterlife, another drastic measure you may consider is the hospital. This isn't the first time for me, and I know this latest vacation may blow up my marriage and much else I've worked for, I may be starting from scratch when I'm out, and it's not a fun place, but the alternative is worse.
Some of you may have been or maybe are in a similar boat for whatever reason. I know tscc can be a mind melt, screws families, and that it also generates a stigma toward mental illness. My TBM extended family always refused to accept this whole deal, they attribute it to sin, (I admit there are 'sins' I am mighty fond of.) This has nothing to do with sin or 'unworthiness,' and also has little to do with my upbringing in tscc, aside from it going untreated for much too long. It's a fucking medical issue.
Sorry if this seems super dramatic, I just can't stand mental issues being viewed as shameful. Fuck that shit. Repeatedly.
I admire the resilience shown on this board, y'all've been a good example of pulling through the god-awful. If this post helps anyone in that same way, tres bien.
Don't freak out, this isn't a cry for help, I won't have internet in there so I won't be posting for a good while in a few hours. This really sucks but I'll be getting competent help soon.
Cheers!