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Date: May 09, 2015 10:38AM
So I have stopped attending church and my wife of 20 years decided she wants to divorce me because I am no longer active in th church. We have been separated for 8 months and are not yet divorced, but get to close.
Anyway, 8 months of no physical contact with a woman and I decided to visit a local late night massage parlor. I was surprised to see I was offered everything from a hand job, blow job, and sex. I sent with the blow job and now the morning after I'm pretty disgusted with myself. At least she put a condom on me, but I'm nervous because I don't want to turn into that guy, and now that I have left the church I feel like between the drinking and now this, I'm becoming the type of person I don't wNt to be.
I don't want to do it ever again, but in the moment it felt great to be desired even if I paid for it. But the morning after guilt is more than I can take. I can never tell anyone as if my soon to be ex ever found out I'm sure she would love the "I knew you were a perve and you would fall apart if ou left the church" but just needed to vent to the board instead.