Posted by:
forestpal
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Date: April 06, 2011 05:42AM
Oh, I know where you're coming from, Atheist&happy!
Everyone gives us good advice here, and many of these suggestions worked for me, but it did take time.
In the meantime, I decided to embrace the solitude! This was a place I'd never been before, and I wanted to experience it fully, before I ran away from it. Many people recommend things like meditation, self-examination, spiritual retreats, vacations alone, and spending solitary time in nature, like Thoreau. I wanted to be "The Fool on The Hill" or the Indian ghuru, who sits on top of the Himalayas, and knows!
Seriously, this did turn out to be a bit of an adventure. I had to face some fears, alone in the dark, in a secluded cabin. It is necessary to identify your fears, and where they come from, before you can conquer them. IMO, Mormons are afraid of the (lone-and-dreary) world. They are afraid of anyone who is not one of them. They are especially afraid of ex-Mormons.
Mormons are brainwashed that popularity is a prime goal in life; in fact, your popularity (the ability to recruit new converts) is a measure of your righteousness. Therefore, a person with few friends, is a person of little value. Get it? You have to find your value somewhere else--in your family (if they're around), your career, tending your pets, maintaining a nice garden, learning, creating art or music, improving your yoga and meditation techniques--whatever you happen to be doing at the moment. While you are looking inward, you do not have to help others, or make money, or pretend to feel anything you don't feel. This usually doesn't last very long. For me, I was a bit of a recluse for about three years. No one needed me. The TBM neighbors and former TBM friends were shunning me, anyway.
Nothing lasts forever, and soon I realized that I was seeing a lot more of my non-Mormon friends at work, and old school chums. Some of my cousins left the cult, and needed my support. All that time I thought I was doing "nothing," I was working, reading, learning new computer skills, posting on RFM, hiking with my dog in the forest every day, getting rid of old Mormon recipes and eating health food, finding new favorite places to go. Things just happened.
I feel more confident and mature, these days. I know what my own opinions and feelings are.
It is interesting that you would express a lack of support and commonality with others--yet your name is "Athiest&happy." I completely understand this. When I got rid of the cult, I instantly became happier! It is possible to be happy and lonely at the same time.