Posted by:
torturednevermo
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Date: June 25, 2015 04:24AM
I want to add something here CTR, but I don’t know if I can or not. Talking about having ‘feelings’ towards things can be a confusing subject here, because the chunch threw out so much confusion surrounding the concept of feelings.
No, I don’t think warm fuzzy feelings are an indicator of truth, or of some holy ghost, and I don’t think feelings come from a higher power. I know some activities can give me warm fuzzies, like when I play music. However, similar to what you noticed when you went through PTSD, when I’ve become depressed, I’ve also lost those feelings even when I’ve played music, which alarmed me because I knew I ought to be feeling great, yet I wasn’t. In a way, that’s how I knew I was depressed.
The only comment I can really make regarding this issue of feelings and Mormonism is that somebody can’t tell you about what and about when you should be having feelings. And when you do get those feelings, somebody shouldn’t be inserting what that means or telling you why you’re having them like the church does. Feelings are personal, and they come and go for different reasons in different people. People get warm fuzzies over different things from each other, and at different times; it’s an individual thing.
That’s one (among many) of the bad things the church did to people IMO. It hijacked their natural feelings and inserted an interpretation that it somehow meant some holy ghost was giving you a confirmation that something was true, usually regarding the church or some aspect of it. No, those feelings just meant you felt good at the moment, that’s all. I can ask my buddies why we feel so good playing music, and we’ll all say ‘because music is fun.’ But maybe it’s also being around the guys that is fun, or maybe it’s having people enjoy our songs, and sometimes maybe it is just because I do like music a lot; but it doesn’t mean music is god, or truth, or divinely guided. It just means I was happy in that moment, and it could have been a combination of different and varying factors that made me feel that way at that particular moment.
I don’t really understand this directive from Mormonism that feelings are to be used to determine answers to questions. That’s messed up to me; feelings are just random things that happen or don’t, but you don’t ask your feelings a question and then wait for an answer. That’s messed up and irrational to me. Feelings just happen, you don't ask them to happen or converse with them to test for answers to things.
Also, I think having feelings is normal. Mormonism is the thing that isn't normal. You’re feelings are your own; some church shouldn’t be telling you what to feel, or what those feelings mean. That’s a personal thing. The cult just tried to hijack those feelings and use them to manipulate you. Feelings are not bad once you ditch the weird Mormon cencept about them. It’s people telling you what those feelings mean or should be used for that’s not good. It’s personal what your feelings about things are, and it differs from person to person. Your feelings are like your own private thoughts in a way, but different at the same time. Own them, and don’t give them away to a church.
There, I tried to say something about it. You’re thread deserved some sort of response. :)