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imaworkinonit
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Date: March 07, 2016 10:40AM
What about the scripture about "In so much as ye have done it unto the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me?" Reading the scriptures doesn't make you a good person.
Jesus himself hated the pharisees, who were always splitting hairs about observing the rules, trying to show how righteous they were, but ignoring those in need. The church is SO much like the pharisees.
I'm sorry your wife is going through that. I went through quite a bit guilt and inadequacy as a member. I'd get busy, usually taking care of my house, and family and serving in the ward, and I wouldn't have time for scripture study, or anything ELSE for myself. Sometimes I'd fall asleep without saying my prayers, and I'd wake up to a baby crying and go to them. Mothers (also fathers), often don't have the time or energy to sit and read and pray.
My husband could see how hard I was on myself (he was secretly apostate), and he started teasing me about my excessive guilt. ("Yeah, you are such a horrible person, I don't know how you can live with yourself" type of stuff.) He was hoping he could get ME to laugh at it, and not take it so seriously. I'm not sure if that took away the guilt, but it did make me more aware of when I was doing it. He also questioned visit teaching/home teaching, and other make-work things that NOBODY wanted to do, and NOBODY wanted done for them.
Some things finally made me question my faith--primarily that I never got a witness of the B of M--and I eventually left the church with him. But I had always blamed my lack of testimony on the fact that I didn't read or pray enough, and I blamed myself excessively for that. Never mind that I probably read the B of M 18 times, and I actually prayed constantly throughout the day. I just had a hard time remembering to kneel down at the assigned times.
Here's an idea: why don't you talk to her about the silly rules that tell people how and when they are supposed to conduct their personal worship? Who decided that people are supposed to pray morning and night? Who said that you have to read the scriptures every day? (The church). WHEN did they say that? I remember when one of the prophets said it was 20 minutes per day of the B of M. I think that was in the 80s or 90s. What about all the people of the church before he said that? They didn't have to. And now, is that still a rule? And later on, they added family scripture study, etc. I wonder if it might help to talk about Muslims, and their requirement to pray 5 times a day, and what she thinks about that. Are they more spiritual? More worthy?
The church is just making up more and more requirements. But each person should be able to decide when they want to talk to their God. It shouldn't be an item on their 'TO DO', aka guilt list. It shouldn't be a 'vain repetition' like the pharisees did. Maybe people shouldn't be wasting God's time.
Here's another idea: suggest that she makes a tick mark on a piece of paper every time she says a prayer in her heart (if she does that). She might realize how much she's actually praying. I was shocked when I stopped believing in God to notice that it was a reflex to pray about everything, all the time. I had to stop myself to break the habit.
I've gone on and on. But I'm concerned when I hear about good people who think poorly of themselves because a false religion convinces them that they'll never be good enough, or sets worship requirements that just don't fit their time constraints or their attention span. Self-blame and lack of that sense of 'worthiness' can be make a person miserable, and it's a very hard habit to break.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 03/07/2016 10:45AM by imaworkinonit.