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getbusylivin
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Date: May 28, 2016 07:42PM
I think back on my life at 18, 19, 20. Off to college, being exposed to a zillion new ideas, writers, questions--Hesse, Thomas Mann, Vonnegut, Sartre, Camus, Allen Ginsburg, Ken Kesey... Trying my hand (literally) at sculpture, studying astronomy, economics, politics, history... Making love for the first time (Ellie! Where are you now?)... Smoking pot... Discovering Jimi Hendrix and Cream and Led Zep and a thousand other bands... Hiking in the Alleghanies, learning to waterski, learning to sail, seeing the Milky Way for the first time, rebuilding a Ford Econoline van, then moving 2000 miles west to the coast, crashing with bikers, working in a Chicano-owned glass company where I was the only gringo...
And not just developing myself in these crazy serendipitous ways, exposing myself to 1001 ideas and mulling them over, keeping some and discarding the rest, but helping others with their spiritual quests in the most profound ways, by staying up all night talking with them and debating and investigating, not in the half-assed cookie-cutter Mormon way but in ways that grow out of each of our individual souls and needs and fears and hopes. The real stuff, the good stuff.
The LDS missionaries--these kids--are missing that, it seems to me. They'll get back and many will plug right into the plan somebody else has told them they are supposed to follow.
Spiritual death is the worst kind.