Posted by:
SisterInNeed
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Date: June 01, 2016 11:48PM
So as of right now, I am in my mission apartment on an iPod touch(yeah, breaking the rules, but who cares). I've been having depression and my fellow missionaries keep telling me to keep going. My MP tells me it will pass. My parents tell me to keep going. My dad told me to do all I can to stay out here. Lately I've come to a realization that I don't entirely believe in the Joseph Smith story and other things as well. I struggled with anxiety and depression before the mission and nearly was killed, but was told that I need to pray more and study my scriptures more.
I hate this. The mission feels like a huge sales pitch and like we're peddling fantasy stories. I'm at the point of where I just want to make friends and sightsee, but in the Midwest, there's only so much sightseeing to do when you're confined with a companion.
Anyways, my depression is getting worse and I don't think I can do this anymore out here. Aside from the doubts I have. Does anyone know when it's considered "acceptable" for depression to send you home from a mission?