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Finally Free!
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Date: June 08, 2016 11:15AM
You are stuck in a very difficult place. It is hard to know what to do when someone you cared/still care about is going through something like this. To me, it sounds like she has an emotional regulation disorder, if not BPD, something similar. Hallmarks are fear of abandonment, impulsiveness, dramatic emotional swings, no boundaries, etc.
I have a few questions that might help.
- Are you a trained counselor?
- Do you want to keep this person in your life?
- If you want to keep this person in your life, how much time can you devote to her?
If you're not a trained counselor, you are probably not really being her counselor, but enabling her boundary crossing and being an emotional crutch for her. People with emotional regulation issues often will look for someone else to "activate" to fix their problems for them as they don't have the emotional tool set to do it themselves. This can be a huge drain on the person that they do this to. Keep in mind they don't do it to be mean, they don't even know they are doing it. They have deep emotional problems and don't know how to solve them so try to get others around them to solve them instead. If you aren't a counselor or someone who's done a lot of research into how to deal with these issues you can actually do more harm than good because you are constantly their on-call emotional tool set, which does neither you nor them any good.
Do you want this person in your life anymore? It's a valid question. You broke up with her for a reason. People who break up sometimes stay friends, sometimes they don't. As harsh as it may sound, she was OK before you were together, so you know she can be OK without you now if that's what you decide. But, I do suggest being honest with her and letting her know that it's not working and that you need to focus on moving forward after this breakup. That way she knows you've set this boundary. If she emails you after that and you don't respond, she'll know why, you won't have just disappeared. Just stick with it. She may not make it easy.
If you do want her in your life, where do you draw the line? Every healthy relationship has boundaries. You have to know where she ends and you begin. You don't have to cut her off entirely if you don't want to, you can say I will set aside x amount of time each day/week/etc to answer her emails, but outside of that, I have to focus on me. Be aware that boundaries are for you. You can not force her to stop sending you emails, texts, etc, but you can control when you read and/or respond. You can even clearly communicate your boundaries to her, and you don't have to give a reason (in fact I suggest you don't). "I see that you're going through a lot right now, I'm sure that's difficult, I need to take care of things for me as well. I can look at your emails at x time each day/week/month." She will probably push against that. So you have to be a broken record for a while and stick to your guns and only promise what you are willing to do. Keep in mind that you can change your mind later too.
Finally, You didn't say if she had done so, but take any threats of self harm seriously. If she's bluffing in an attempt to manipulate you, call her on it by calling the police immediately. If she's serious and you've called the police, then your conscience is clear. So, it's the right thing to do either way.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 06/08/2016 12:07PM by Finally Free!.