Posted by:
xe
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Date: September 25, 2016 07:42PM
I first got in contact with my birth mom a few years ago. We emailed for a while. Met her once, but she didn't take it well. She still has a lot of regret over the past and is frequently depressed/suicidal.
I text her every once in a while to see how she's doing, but I can never truly connect. It's hard to say it, but she feels like just another acquaintance. I feel like I can connect more with my aloof boss at work than my own mom. I call her by her first name and still don't know much about her since she's really guarded.
It's kind of sad to realize that we're so separate and incompatible. A lot of this has to do with my LDS upbringing. I feel like I've tried everything.
I'm bad at expressing my feelings in person and I've been called an emotionless robot/anti-social, but I truly feel sad about this situation and want to do something about it.
Do you have any advice?
Thanks!
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 09/25/2016 07:43PM by xe.