Posted by:
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Date: October 18, 2016 01:43AM
Thank you for this thread, Lydia100. I thought I was peculiar in my aversion to Mormon chapels, because I have PTSD. It's good to know that normal people can feel sick, too.
I decided to be kind, and to rise above the shunning, and support my grandchild, when she was baptized. It was the first time I had been in a Mormon church, in seven years, so I was sure I was recovered from the Mormon abuse my children and I had suffered. NOT!
It was at our old ward, and two of the abusers were there. When I saw the baptizing dads dressed in those too tight white jumpsuits, I actually gagged. It reminded me of my abusive temple ex-husband, bulging out of his jumpsuit (he had gained 50 pounds over the summer break) on our wedding day--the worst day of my life!
I smiled, was polite, spoke the dialog, and had taken care to dress just right, but afterwards, I had an upset stomach for several days, and had to miss a day of work. After going through the Hell of flashbacks, and nightmares afterwards, my daughter accused me of "frowning". Well, the baby I was holding was squirming all over the place.
That's another thing about those Mormon chapels--the crying babies and toddlers. I love children, and I always sensed that they were crying in despair--picking up on the evil, hateful vibes of the adults in the pews. They were crying to get out, to go home, to be loved and comforted--to be free.
Since I was just a "frowner", anyway, I won't go to any other baptisms--it wasn't worth being sick. I'll just buy the 8-year-old a fabulous birthday gift, and leave it at that. Children know you love them. You don't have to prove anything by going to their baptisms, talks, programs, or performances.
I have a lot of TBM relatives, so there are lots of funerals. I always go to the viewing before the funeral, usually the night before. Often those are held at the mortuary. I sign the guest book, and give my condolences to the family. I was there, and honored the deceased. No way can I sit through more Mormon preaching, and their awful Mormon-approved music. Sometimes I feel bad about it--but I also feel bad that the deceased wasted so much of his or her life on the cult.