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anon anemone
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Date: November 18, 2016 05:57AM
It's been several years since I left. For the most part I've been able to put things behind me and forget about them. Occasionally I'd have to explain that I couldn't watch TV or play video games or use the Internet as a child because "it's Satan trying to influence you," to explain my lack of knowledge of pop culture, or joke about how crazy it was, but that was it.
Anyways I've been reading a lot about another cult (they're much worse than the Mormons) and I guess it seems to have unlocked something? Like there will be moments where I disconnect from my surroundings and I will actually see the temple, or the church, or someone from church, or taste the shitty temple enchiladas, and not be able to move. Like I'll know it's not real but it's different from just imagining it. It's something I actually see. It's very frightening and I don't think I understand why. I've heard of flashbacks being a symptom of PTSD but I don't think I have PTSD.
Also it pisses me off to no end when people go "Mormons are quirky but they're harmless, it's just like any other religion." No it's not!!! I wish I could explain what it's like to not have any identity of your own and not know how to think and not even have ownership of your thoughts. But it's not something people can really understand unless they've experienced it.