Posted by:
Thomas S Monson's Pepsi Can
(
)
Date: April 04, 2017 10:08PM
I was baptized into TSCC when I was 9. I married my wife, a TBM, in 2003. In 2011, I was excommunicated on the personal insistence of Elder Bednar and others at COB. Bednar almost kicked my a$$ at stake conference for checking my iPhone and then sleeping while Elder Eyring, a Seventy, spoke. And yes, if Bednar had touched me, I would have called the cops and pressed charges. But I digress.
Now, I was perfectly happy to let things be the way they were. When the bishop and his butt buddy showed up to "serve" me with the "summons," I ripped it up and tossed it on the ground, hitting the bishop's shoe.
Anyway, my wife threw guilt trip after guilt trip, and against every fiber of my being, I did the song and dance to be rebaptized. I now regret it.
I do not believe in the messed up crap they teach. But sometimes, you take one for the team.
Now the problem: for legal reasons, I can't divorce my wife. And I can't escape TSCC at the risk of making her cry and whatever other guilt trips she has.
So, then, how do I solve the problem? I've been contemplating suicide. Like seriously considering suicide by cop or overdosing. I am bipolar, schizophrenic (as is my wife, which is why I can't divorce her in NY) and epileptic.
I have nothing ahead of me but seizures and mental problems. Suicide would solve several problems at once. Yes, I
am probably cycling, but the more I think about it, the more it makes sense.
I'm going to stop taking my mental and seizure meds so I'm nice and incoherent, clean off my bitch slapper and get down to business.
The people in my branch are nice enough and I put on an act, but the reality is that I want to run fast and run far, just like I want to run away from mortal life.
Thoughts?
Edited 3 time(s). Last edit at 04/04/2017 10:37PM by Thomas S Monson's Pepsi Can.