Posted by:
shapeshifter
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Date: May 15, 2017 10:24AM
Addressing PTSD and wifi/ radiation sickness.
I was just going to back down after what I wrote yesterday.
But I had trouble going to sleep after.
I noticed I was getting into panicky breathing patterns and that I was overly stressed. I asked myself why as I tried to take deep calming breaths.
What I discovered is interesting so I want to share it here as it may be useful to others in figuring out their own triggers and body’s responses.
The poster “Mnemonic” who immediately disbelieved my story of my radiation sickness (which is now commonly called EHS Electro Hyper Sensitivity, but I think this is a misnomer as it makes it sound like ‘hyper sensitivity’ is the victim’s problem and so could be psychological rather than naming what it really is, which is over exposure to microwave radiation, therefore it’s really microwave sickness), dismissing me in a callous manner without any real evidence to prove .. to prove what? That I am making this up? That I am lying? That I am delusional?
I say HE because it was clear to me, or this is how it felt to me, that someone with that kind of attitude, who thinks he is an authority on something he knows nothing about, and is patronizing and condescending in tone, MUST be a man.
I could be wrong. What I what I point out is how PTSD from Mormonism, specifically men acting in authority positions (who really have no proof to their claims of authority but demand blind obedience anyway) affects my ability to deal calmly and effectively with skepticism as in the case here.
Being in a minority, albeit a minority at epidemic proportions now (3 percent is epidemic, but in some countries it’s even as high as 10 percent, like Israel, they have an estimated 10 percent of the population who are dealing with that I am, hence the government is now taking measure to make safe spaces for ‘EHS’ victims to live, work and go to school in. They have banned wifi from many schools and taken down some cell towers.), I of course have had to deal with a lot of skepticism, esp. as a knee jerk reaction from a public which is used to trusting industry and government, namely trusting authority, even when there is compelling evidence time and again to NOT just blindly trust authority.
(Think of all of the industries which have thus far lied to and wittingly harmed the public for the sake of profit… DDT, PCB, Asbestos, Lead, Agent Orange, Tobacco, etc.. and governing agencies which back them up, protect them, and governments which lie to and manipulate us into fighting in unjust wars). A public which does not want to consider the idea that the authorities they have trusted would betray that trust even though recent history is ripe with examples. It’s like the need to trust and believe overrides our memories of betrayals. I think it’s also just our conditioning to do so (i.e. TV commercials bombarding us from birth to the grave), esp. those of us raised in a cult where blind unquestioning submission to authority is the norm.
So getting to my point. In the face of this type of knee jerk response to new information, which in this case happens to be my personal very difficult experience, my PTSD is triggered. Because I feel I am being treated as I was growing up LDS, which is to say, having my feelings and experiences and thoughts immediately dismissed by authority figures. Feeling like I can’t express myself because I will be ridiculed and dismissed, particularly if anything I think or feel is incongruent with said authorities ideas or in the case of my father, it goes against information from his higher up authorities. Growing up constantly feeling like I am worthless and anything I have to contribute is unimportant and anything I experience is likewise, mainly due to the gender I happened to be born as, has certainly taken it’s toll. And the abuse I endured has of course led to PTSD because of the trauma. So when I feel I am in a similar situation again, even if just slightly so, the reaction I feel psychically is out of proportion to the situation because of the PTSD. Hence my body goes into flight/fight mode and stress hormones are released.
The added stress of course is counterproductive to healing from the radiation sickness. Esp. given that what EMFs do to the body is to throw it into fight/flight mode via the constant stimulation of the radiation. So many with ‘EHS’ after years of being exposed to this stimulation without rest, get stuck in ‘fight/flight’ where they get this sympathetic nervous system lock. So that once in a place where they are no longer constantly being exposed it takes some time for the body to get out of that mode. And because their bodies have been continuously releasing stress hormones for long periods of time, they are unable to recover after and set the body back to equilibrium, so that their cortisol levels are lower than normal after exposures. This is similar to what happens in the body with PTSD. But as I mentioned in my other post PTSD is not the CAUSE of ‘EHS’.. the over-exposure to the EMFs is the cause, BUT as you can see it compounds the problem by becoming another source of stress for my body to deal with when my adrenals are already shot from the years of dealing with the stress stimulus from EMFs. (It’s thought that adrenal dysfunction from not getting a break from stimulus, is what causes a ‘hyper-sensitized’ reaction since then the body’s reaction is similar to an allergic one) And it makes it difficult for me to have to face the natural skepticism and criticism in a world now addicted to their wireless gadgets. (if you don’t ‘believe’ in the addiction aspect, just look it up, BBC news even had an article recently about it saying that digital addiction was worse than meth addiction). As a result I have chosen to minimize my involvement of the politics surrounding the issue and haven’t been comfortable in an activist role. Though I try to educate those whom I care about and when the issue may come up in conversation. But I have been able to see the toll it takes on me when I have to be in a position of feeling the need to defend myself. (Esp. when I and so many other have faced and experienced homeless when unable to find safe housing and safe work environments, the illness having this severe and disruptive of an impact on our lives.. making it easy to get angry and frustrated quickly being so misunderstood so frequently.)
I brought this topic (something I generally like to avoid these days) up here on this thread because there is compelling research that shows that the stimulus on the body from wireless/microwave radiation, particularly in the form of wifi and cell phones, causes aggressive and hyper active/ agitated response in many of those exposed to it. This is a biological response, not a psychological one.
Children, whose bodies and brains are still developing are especially vulnerable. The only safety study ever officially conducted by the wireless industry has been to do with thermal heating of tissues in the body, but NOT in re. to biological effects (namely cell damage, cell mutations have been found in independent scientific research, from even just a few minutes of exposure to cell phone/ wifi radiation), and even then the thermal heating tests were done on a ‘dummy’ meant to represent a 200 pound man in his 20s. This is what is referred to as the SAR rating. And even the SAR ratings are currently not in what the industry itself deems to be within ‘safe’ exposure limits.. and the literature found with your cell phones (buried in the manual in fine print) says that you should keep the cell phone away from your body at least an inch at all times to avoid thermal heating damage to your body! (The city of Berkeley, CA just passed an ordinance to label any wireless product so that these safety warnings are on the package rather than buried in the manual.) Hence if you try to sue your cell phone manufacturer for bodily injury and they ask you in court which hand you held your phone in, and you say your right hand, they then can say that you weren’t supposed to hold it because their warning in the manual says you have to keep it an inch off your body at all times, this would include your hand! So in effect you can’t use the product the way it was designed to be used.
As I mentioned before, I know a lot on this topic, because I have been personally harmed and as a result my life severely disrupted (having to leave home, a budding career, friends, family, etc.). So I’ve had to educate myself. BUT I find it hard to engage in debates on it because of my PTSD. When confronted with the post yesterday I felt my body respond with a quickening heart rate and shallow breathing. I became both blood boiling-ly angry and overly fearful. I still feel the anger triggers and can see in my body how hard it is for me to confront those mimicking authority figures. This is MY issue. People have a right to say what they please even if callous and ignorant. I imagine that this poster isn’t aware of his own behavior. But I am hoping my sharing will help us to see how we may fall into this behavior pattern without thinking, because of our brainwashing about gender roles and authority figures.
(And it would be helpful for people on this board in general to be aware that many of us suffer from PTSD, so a little sensitivity is appreciated.)
The fact is the mainstream media is owned by corporations. They cannot bold facedly criticize an industry that funds their publications. They would lose funding and lose their livelihoods. This is not new phenomena. This is pretty much how it’s always been. So if someone is only going to accept information from what they have been trained to believe is a credited source (i.e. mainstream media sources) and dismiss everything else (non ‘authority’ sources) and everyone else who questions the mainstream as ‘conspiratorial’ not even really having a grasp at what that means, then there really is nothing I or anyone else can say to that person.
But in a perfect world we wouldn’t be so quick to come to judgments, and maybe just maybe we’d decide that in the face of new information that perhaps we don’t actually know much on the subject and instead of immediately shooting the messenger we could step back, take a breath and say ‘well I haven’t heard of that, but just because I haven’t heard of it yet, doesn’t mean it’s not true’. I would hope that if someone told me of an illness they are suffering from that I wouldn’t just say that they must be imaging it and be a conspiracy theorist because I haven’t heard of it before.
And in asking myself this same question, I realize that my tendency in the face of new information is to not dismiss the person telling me and to dismiss their experiences but to allow myself time to take it in and then do more research so that I can learn more. This is probably because of my being a female in the LDS cult and never having been placed in the position of authority that the males are, so I wasn’t trained to automatically assume I am right. Though I was trained to obey authorities. I think however my questioning authority which lead me on a path of discovery I would not have otherwise taken, has caused me to question it in general every since. I am grateful for that, even though it’s been a very hard road. My world has also expanded dramatically and I have been able to discover so much more knowledge on so many more topics than I would have had I not done that. And it can feel very lonely knowing something that the majority of the population does not yet know. But it doesn’t mean the knowledge I have gained isn’t valuable or correct. What I have to struggle with is not wrapping my sense of self worth up in whether or not I am believed and validated by others. And THAT is what is related to my PTSD, the feelings of unworthiness and the feeling that I need to keep quiet or I will be ridiculed and shamed.
So it takes a lot of courage on my part now to write all of this. To trust myself, to take a stand in the face of what feels like ridicule. I am not so much writing this to the person who triggered my PTSD, (since likely that person is not going to be open to the information) but for others who may relate to my story and see in themselves how they get triggered and why. And to hopefully learn that they are also valid and what they have to share is just as important as what anyone else has to, no matter what people’s reactions might be.
Knowledge is discovered, not revealed. I have to repeat that to myself now often. We were in the LDS faith, taught that knowledge is revealed and revealed by those in authority. We were taught that it is not discovered and we are not to go out seeking its discovery.
So here’s to DISCOVERY!
Thank you!