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Date: June 02, 2017 09:22AM
I'm one of the most introverted people you could ever be afraid of meeting. I'm going to share what helped me be less afraid.
At 18, my only friend got me hired on where she worked, which today would be considered a fancy truck stop in the middle of nowhere. The BFE location off of a major interstate made it a very busy place. I took orders at the counter, short-order cooked and served, pumped gas and stocked and sold merchandise.
The job was a must-have, as it was my only means of support in my escape from my family. I had never worked outside of working at home. My brain was way beyond the job, but I was what was then politely called "painfully shy." It was an apt description. My disposition made others uncomfortable; the "pain" was bilateral. My social abilities fell short, but I was a hard worker, accomplished whatever task they gave me, so they kept me on.
A year later, I had learned many tricks to fake what I did not feel: confidence. I watched others, mimicked their responses and body language - it was hard, it didn't feel authentic and it took a lot of fails and trial behaviors to find some sort of footing with strangers. I kept working at it.
My next job was similar, but more intense. I actually had to hawk the product in a store setting. Again, I needed the job, no going home. By faking it, I became a top seller.
Your intellectual brain is way beyond these types of tasks, but your social brain needs this training in the worst way. Your intellectual brain, right now, knows exactly what I'm suggesting that you do.
Go get a service job at a fast-food place (no back-end cooking only), or better, be a waiter in an IHOP or similar place, and pretend that your life depends on learning the social skills that you lack. It's not about the work, it's not about your intellectual capacity, it's not even about the job itself. It's about you learning to make others feel comfortable around you, even when you don't feel comfortable around them. It's about learning to live with - even thrive with - your disability.
It's forcing your intellectual brain to get the education that is needed to take control of your life.
No matter how humiliating you may think that such a job might be for someone with your credentials, your credentials did not include this training. You can get paid while getting this needed education.
Decades later, and I'm still painfully shy, but I can sell myself and my ideas, and, I can put people at ease. They LIKE to tell me their stories.