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VeganPaladin
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Date: July 05, 2017 03:42PM
So I'm starting to see that when push comes to shove, people start seeing the church for what it really is, they have two options. They can either leave the church like most of us did or they become really fierce apologists.
This is really fascinating that because I will read something by an apologist and it makes me really really angry. Like, "How can they be so naive!"
But I realized today that I or really any of us could have ended up down that path. It was just one choice that made me decide to leave the church instead of continue to defend it. And that's all that's different.
I don't want to hate anymore. I hated everyone outside of the church while I was a member and I don't want to hate everyone in it or who's defending it now. They are just trying to do what they truly believe their God wants them to. They believe us to be the worst kind of people. To them, we are apostates that denied the Holy Ghost and committed the sin next to murder. It's no wonder they are so upset with us.
I think what I want to do is start forgiving and stop hating. If I learned anything in the church it was that Jesus forgave people. And I don't even believe in Jesus anymore but I still think that's a good way to live your life.
I've wasted enough of my life being controlled and manipulated bu a religion that ended up not really caring about me. But I'm not going to blame the members anymore. They just don't know. And most of us were in their shoes at one time or another. Completely blinded by the need to be sealed or prove to God that we were worthy or something.
I think the anger is completely justified when we leave. But I don't think it should be directed at members or apologists but instead toward the entire organization. It is corrupt and foul but I don't believe that all the members are as well.
They are still asleep and don't want to be woken up. And it's not my job to do it.
Just thought I would share what I was thinking about today.
I hope the universe shines a little brighter each day you find more of yourself