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boilerluv
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Date: July 25, 2017 06:05PM
What kept me sane and off cigarettes was Tootsie Pops. I kept a supply with me at all times. I started smoking back in the 50s, when it was cool. Actors in "doctor coats" on TV advertising Kent for their patients, because it is "mild." A real, actual doctor advised a neighbor of ours to "take up smoking because it will help settle your nerves."
I "tried" to quit a couple of times, with gum and with the patches, but I was allergic to the adhesive on the patches, so I ended up looking like a burn victim from neck to waist and shoulder to elbow, and I couldn't stand the gum.
Developed COPD but kept smoking. I smoked when my grandkids were at my house, but always in a different room, and told myself that was ok. Same thing in the car with the window down part way. Then--my cousin and his wife (both smokers) tried to adopt a baby. They were in their 40s, but the birth mother chose them. Problem: the adoption agency would not allow a baby to go to smokers. So they both quit. Cold turkey. Which woke me up. I asked myself, "Do Mike and Nikki love a baby they have not even met more than I love my grandchildren? Answer: no, not possible. Solution: Stop smoking and do it now. Cold turkey, no excuses. None of this whining around about how "I tried, but I just couldn't." You will never quit if you say you're going to "try to quit.' You have to tell yourself that you're going to quit. Period. I took the cigarettes I had, broke them all in half and dumped them into the dumpster at the apartment complex where I lived. I ate a lot and cried a lot and cussed a lot. A couple of times, I took a hit off the cigarette of a friend who smoked, but it was one hit, or two hits, once a week or so for a month. Then never again. But man oh man, you never saw me without a Tootsie pop in my mouth! When the urge hit me really badly I just said, "If Mike and Nikki can both quit cold turkey for a kid they didn't even know yet, I can quit for children I love." Sometimes I write it: "Why is having a cigarette right now more important to me than anything else? What's going on in my mind? Do I really want to spend that much money on something that may be killing me and may cause the people I love to get sick? No? Then get it out of your mind! Take a shower! Take a walk! Eat an orange! Cry a little. Do what you have to do but do NOT smoke!"
And here's the truth: it was easier than I had thought it would be. No, it was not easy. One time I was at the store, and the checkout kid asked me if I wanted paper or plastic and I slammed my fist down and yelled, "I don't give a damn! I just want a bag that I can carry these damn groceries in!" then I felt so bad that I started to cry, and said, "I'm so sorry! I quit smoking, and I'm having a hard time." Everybody laughed and said, "Hang in there. You'll make it."
And I did. And that was June 5, 2004. But I got lung cancer anyway, and here's the irony: the type of cancer I got was NOT CAUSED BY SMOKING. In fact, it was operable. The problem was: I had smoked so much for so long that my lung capacity is now down to like 40%, so they can't take out part of either lung. I did have radiation and it did help. That cancer spot is now just scar tissue. But cancer is devious, and it will be back. I have to have cat scans every 3 months for the rest of my life--which could be a year--or less---or more, if I'm lucky,
QUIT. Don't make excuses for yourself. Don't say, "It's too hard! I can't do it! Yes, you can, but not if you say, "I'm going to try to quit," because by saying that, you are giving yourself an excuse to fail. Say, "I'm quitting." Then just do it.