Posted by:
Breeze
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Date: September 02, 2017 10:37AM
Yes to what Becca wrote:
"Yes, I believed it. All of it. And I refuse to let it ruin my life for one more minute."
There have been times that I have had to focus very strongly on my vow to not let Mormonism ruin one more minute of my life. Stay strong, people!
My experiences with Mormonism were unusually bad--thank God others haven't suffered as much--as I was abused as a child, then, at BYU, conned into a temple marriage with a wife-beating psychopath. I was left with permanently shattered broken bones, PTSD, no self-esteem, and no faith that anyone would ever rescue me or love me--not even God. I did get married to an old boyfriend, another Mormon, and had children. I was always able to love--but I didn't love a whole lot of people. Because I was a divorced woman, a lot of my Mormon fake-friends abandoned me, and my second husband's family disapproved of me. No one cared that I had to get divorced to save my life. Still in the cult, the leaders started abusing my children--adult priesthood leaders breaking into our house, and shoving and kicking my sons; and the the bishop's older son molesting my little girl.
I feel guilty in believing that "Mormonism is the best way to raise children." I can't undo what the cult did to us--but I can do everything to stop it from ruining the rest of our lives. My children and I resigned together.
It is NOT too late, Omergod! As long as you are breathing, you have the present moment to live. I would go through all the agony of resigning and losing literally ALL of my Mormon friends, go through it all again, even if I had only one more day to live.
Therapy can help! It helped me with my PTSD. Therapy helped me be less depressed.
I trust your judgment, Omergod, in what you write, because only you know these things. Even though it is too late for marriage and children--there are other things in life! This having-babies-multiply-and-replenish-the-church thing is only one of many, many possibilities in life. You have been brainwashed! You can be happy and successful without marriage!
If you are still bound in the cult, you can resign, now! Work it out, according to your individual circumstances.
badassadam--you need to give it more time. While you are sick and in pain, you see things through a negative lens. In time, you will find true friends--even one true friend, is enough.
There is LOVE--real, unconditional love--out in the real world. Yeah, most of the love comes from YOU, but a small percentage will be returned from others, and that is enough. Contrary to what the Mormons lead you to believe, you don't need hundreds of friends and tens of children and a huge Mormon family. Mormons tell members this, so they will recruit for the cult. "Bring your friends and neighbors." "Every member a missionary."
There is love and friendship of the REAL kind out here!
Yes, I also believed the Mormon lie that Mormonism is the only source of love and friendship. There is nothing real to be found in Mormonism. It is NOT the best way to live or raise children. The social lies can be as damaging as the doctrinal lies.
You need to believe in a better life for your future outside of Mormonism. Believe in yourself!