Date: September 20, 2010 02:35PM
I never enjoyed it either. I thought there was something wrong with ME, because I didn't enjoy church. I didn't ever feel enlightened or comforted by going there. My mother would always go on and on about how wonderful church was, how amazing it makes her feel, how it just fills her spiritual cup so she can make it through the week, how she can't imagine missing even one meeting. /vomit
I always left church frustrated and pissed off at the closed-minded things I heard, at the bigotry, the misogyny. I hated church. I forced myself to go for far too long, thinking there was something defective about me because I didn't enjoy it.
I'm so glad those days are over.
Date: September 21, 2010 07:38AM
It's funny how these things worked. I loved seminary, especially since my teacher was a good teacher and was willing to spend time having discussions with his students outside of the classroom. I loved studying about Mormonism, which is what eventually got me in trouble. I even enjoyed reading the scriptures. But I can't say as if I ever enjoyed church. It was so boring. And then, worst of all, there was fast and testimony meeting. I couldn't help but feel embarassed for those emotional types who would get up and cry. I remember as a teenager drawing, seeing how numb I could get my legs, looking through the hymnal with my younger brother to see which hymns would be good drinking songs ("As Sisters in Zion" would work), and so forth. It was so boring. And, judging from the sacrament meeting I attended for my niece's baby blessing recently, it still is.
Date: September 21, 2010 04:17PM
I never liked going either, but I was only going in an attempt to save the marriage to my TBM ex-husband. It was only after I filed for divorce that I felt it was safe enough to quit going, and eventually resign when I got an invitation to a singles dance before my divorce was even final. For the most part, I only go inside any church for funerals, weddings, or a baptism. Since most of my friends and family aren't Mormon, I get to attend wedding ceremonies if I'm invited, even if I'm not a member of the church where the wedding is held.