Posted by:
Wowza
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Date: November 03, 2018 06:39AM
Before I joined the mormon church. I felt okay reading about any church, attending any church, discussing certain topics. I could explore the bible, come to my own conclusions. If a church made me feel uncomfortable, or they pushed an idea that didn't feel right. I'd just move on.
I wasn't exactly hopping around a lot either. I went to a new church every year in my teenage years up until 16 and then stayed at a church where I felt comfortable for 3 years before my conversion to the LDS church.
I think I joined because I didn't buy into the whole, "everyone is going to hell that doesn't know about Jesus" thing. It just seemed too harsh. I couldn't believe that an all powerful being would just send people to hell for a misunderstanding, etc.
So, there I was in the mormon church trying my best to learn to wear dresses and skirts and the importance of not having two earrings in one ear. ( and other little rules times a hundred).
But, now I can't leave. I married a mormon. Got pregnant. Had kids, built a life. And he is VERY VERY TBM. Any criticism I'd say about the church, got met with a severe fight. He made it clear early on what was most important. It was the church.
I learned my lesson and just kept my head down.
Now, when I look into other religions, exploring like I use to. It feels like infidelity. I can't just go and visit my friend's church service. Thats like a quickie. I can't discuss the wrong topics, or worst of all come to the wrong conclusions.
I just keep on and keep quiet.