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Date: March 16, 2019 09:41PM
Well, the wedding was yesterday, and I didn't go. On Thursday a group of friends took me to a bar and we had a blast. Then on Friday some other friends invited me over for drinks and card games. And today, yet another friend spent the day skiing with me, and then I went out for a special dinner with my spouse.
I will admit that there were a few hours on Friday when I almost caved and wondered if I was making a terrible mistake by not going. But today as I was skiing and enjoying my special dinner, I teared up a little because I felt SO HAPPY and SO LOVED and supported. When I contrast that feeling with the terrible anxiety and guilt I feel any time I interact with my parents and siblings, I know I made the right choice for my own personal health and well being.
And to all of you here on this board, I want you to know that that feeling of love and support that brought me to tears includes you. My friends and family-of-choice love and support me, but they haven't been through the same things that so many of us here on this board have been through. You understand this on a gut level. Your kind words, stories, and support meant the world to me. Thank you. I hope I can pay it forward.