Date: July 17, 2019 07:14PM
Just to let you know, azsteve--I have had these exact experiences with dreams. You're not the only one. You describe this very well!
In the good dreams, I just have enjoyed the dream, whether it was flying, riding a winged pegasus, being able to be several places at once, or whatever. I wonder if the flying dreams came from my climbing very high trees, almost daily, in my back yard. I could escape from my bully brother, and enjoy the view, and let the wind sway the tree, underneath me. In one flying dream, I could levitate only about a yard off the ground, using only my mind, but everyone was amazed at that. I was a high-jumper in high school, and I would always visualize clearing the bar, before each jump, so that's where it came from. Most dreams can be explained.
I have PTSD, from being battered for 14 months, by the psychopathic wife-beater whom I married in the temple. With the final beating, he strangled me until I stopped breathing. I thought I had died. In my recurring dream, I dream that I'm waking up (but I'm still asleep), feeling the horror of being stalked by that thug, and that he is going to kill me. In the dream, I turn on the light, get out of bed, and start walking through the house, but no one is there. I'm safe. I get back into bed, turn off the light, and lie down again. As soon as I lie down, my ex suddenly jumps on me, his face snarling in my face, and he is attacking me! I scream as loud and as long as I can! The noise would wake me up.
Oh yeah, I screamed in real life, and this horrified those who lived with me! I thought this would end when I got married a second time, but it just got worse.
I went into therapy for PTSD, and my cognitive-behavioral therapist said to try to create a different outcome of the dream. I could not. Why was I having this dream? Was there something I needed to learn? I was slowly getting over the PTSD. The abuse was long over, but why did the dream remain?
Then one night, during the dream, I left the light on, and I was going to bravely look my assailant in the eye and confront him. When I looke at his face this time, it was the face of my second husband! I woke up screaming, as usual.
It turned out that my second Mormon husband had been cheating on me since our honeymoon. I didn't realize this was happening, until I investigated, and got all the facts. (Most people like to actually brag about their affairs, and I got a lot of information.) He was nice at first, but soon became very cruel to me and to our children. He had a nasty disposition, and secretly hated women. He was a Narcissist, and passive-aggressive, and manipulative, and sneaky, and a liar. But all this showed up in my dreams, because my sub-conscious had detected his shifty gaze, his nervous body-language, my children's fear that he would hit them--all the things I was denying in my waking life. My second husband abandoned me and my children, out of the blue, disappearing with a phone call, in which he said, "I don't care about you and the children. I don't want a family anymore." That was 20 years ago, and he has had almost no contact at all.
Dream can be a warning!!! Your subconscious notices things that your waking mind overlooks. Listen to your intuition. Those primal instincts are built into you to help you survive. Don't ignore your dreams.