I was pretty dumb when it came to the organization of the LDS scriptures. I got schooled when I went to the MTC to serve a church mission. I think it was the first evening of class that the teacher challenged us to scripture chase. Well I was looking for Mosiah in the old testament. Since I was the last to correctly find it, I was assigned to say the closing prayer for a week. That's how mormons feel better about themselves. They attack the most vulnerable in the group to inflate their egos.
Today it no longer matters because scriptures aren't really needed or used in church meetings. It's been a tremendous relief to know that everything came from Joseph's ass.
My hand used to freeze up when I took shorthand tests, etc. Or typing tests.
I refused to say prayers after I realized I didn't have to. I was chastised for it by a few bishops, but I stuck to my guns. Mormonism is not a religion for those who are introverts.
I actually also felt dumb for a long time. Then I went to work for scientists, chemists, engineers, mathematicians and they thought I was pretty damn smart and they treated me that way. It changed my world.
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as a youngster reading and pondering and poring over the scriptures. Not wasting time studying the scriptures was probably the smarter approach in the long run.
The only way you would have known that Mosiah was not in the Old Testament would have been by investing a huge amount of time as a teen studying the Old Testament and the Book of Mormon. In both cases, 90% or more of the contents can best be described as useless garbage...unless you would have gotten a special thrill reading about how a guy caused a bear to kill several children because they laughed at his bald head...and other stuff like that.
As a young 19 year old. I was made to feel stupid in the church. I asked the wrong questions. Obviously, I just didn't get it.
I remember being excited and telling my seminary teacher that I had taken the the ASVAB and scored a 99. Instead of sharing in my excitement, he told me I needed to learn to focus on the right things in life, namely being a good wife and mother. At the time I was fully believing and took him to heart. I didn't pursue the military or schooling for the next fifteen years. I stayed home and was a good mother.
I loved being a mother, but the church asks you to suppress large portions of your personality, goals and ideas in order to fit in. Its the opposite of what they claim to be. The church is meant to lift you up and make you a better person. a church should help you to be the best version of yourself possible, instead you get put in a box. A box whose parameters are defined and set by ancient closed-minded men.