Posted by:
exminion
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Date: September 28, 2019 02:21AM
I hate to agree with such a harsh conclusion, DNA, but that's what I ended up doing. I didn't just cut out my family, all at once, though. It was a slow, painful process of trying to keep those life-long relationships alive, until I just gave up, or until they were so cold and snobby, that it gave me the creeps to be around them.
No one wants to feel like that--ever! I felt judged, looked-down-on, like I didn't belong there with the others, like they wanted me...gone.
I learned something. My Mormon family members and former friends want their church to be true. Their Mormon church has brainwashed them into thinking that those who leave are following Satan. They are doomed for "outer darkness", and some will become "sons of perdition." They believe that leaving the cult is sure to bring great unhappiness, and failure in life. Am I right? Wasn't this what we were all taught, when we were Mormons?
Therefore, because the Mormons want their church to be true, they want to see these prophesies happen to us! This is the "creepy-ness" we feel. They want to watch us fail, and be unhappy, and lose our family and friends. They want us to become so abject, that we come crawling back, crying, "You are right! The church is true!"
Instead, they see us happier than ever! At first, they think we are faking it, just to show them up. After a few years, they realize our joy is real! They see us succeed, and they see our children succeed. They see how close we are, and how much we love each other--without their "example" or their "reunions" or the mutual agony of the cult to keep us together.
Above anything else, they want to remain obedient and faithful to their cult. Some of them have dis-owned their own children, and in one case, their own parents. Why would they decide to not disown me--I'm just an inconsequential, female cousin, divorced and single. My children and I make up a "broken home." We are so much MORE than that! I know what you-all mean about wanting to be yourself, and to be liked for your self!
The bottom line is--that the Mormons WANT US TO FAIL! They want us to be unhappy, wicked, ugly, poorer, with loser children. IMO--anyone who wants BAD THINGS TO HAPPEN TO US is by definition an enemy--not a "friend"--not someone who is in our corner. This is why I have no regreets in letting the worst ones go. I don't miss them. We have our own family parties, without all that gloom and doom.
That's why some of our Mormon relatives are actually angry at us, and they grow more and more angry, as the years pass.
One-by-one, and a few group-by-group, they have expressed their "heartbreak, disappointment, sorrow" or whatever.
NOT ONE has ever asked me WHY I left! Not one! Many have told me why they think I left. They said I was "offended, wanting to sin, not able to live up to (up to--that's funny) the church's standards, didn't read the BOM enough times--we have all heard the Mormons' reasons--UGH!
When I was a little girl, some of my Mormon family members physically abused me, and tried to abuse my children--gone!
Some of my Mormon family members stole money from me, my parents, my other siblings, and a family investment we had--gone!
My inlaws disowned and disinherited my husband and I and our children, when we left the cult--gone! That Mormon family was horribly dysfunctional, and had several suicides, including my TBM father-in-law, some of my kids' cousins, and widespread drug use. I'm now glad that we were ostracized from what would have been a very bad family environment for my own kids.
I once had a huge extended family, and now, 12 years after leaving, I only see 6 of them. Is it a coincidence, that these are all women who have been divorced? Two are still Mormon, and seek comfort in being temple matrons. Four have left the cult.
About 25% of my TBM cousins' children and grandchildren have left the cult, because they are savvy with the internet, and know more than we did at that age. What prompts them to question the church in the first place is usually sympathy for their friends that are gay, or Black, or they are women in the working world, or the cult is just weird and creepy, or (like my children) the leaders are abusive.