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Mother Who Knows
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Date: March 18, 2020 06:48AM
This isn't helping my PTSD. I've been having non-stop anxiety attacks, and haven't been able to sleep. I've lost 5 pounds, because I'm afraid to eat up all my food. On Friday, after a minor out-patient hospital treatment, I was frantically scurrying around looking for Toilet paper. I should have gone home and rested, instead of participating in all the panic. I was in pain, which raised the adrenalin in my body, and raised my blood pressure. My heart was pounding, I had difficulty breathing, and the next day I had all the symptoms of a full-blown cold (minus the fever). Coughing, sore throat, my nose was so stuffy that I couldn't breathe, and the lack of sleep and pain and anxiety made me feel like I was going to die--now or later. I'm over 70.
What saved me was knowing that it was mostly in my head, and after bringing home my supply of cough and cold medicines and food and chicken soup and 90 days supply of meds, etc, I knew I had done my best to prepare. But I made the mistake of reading all the news articles about the virus. That day, they said that 40% of the population would get sick, and that 8% of the people my age who got sick would die. I live with my daughter, son-in-law, and all their children. The schools are closed. The children are stir-crazy and upset. How could I possibly keep them out of my refrigerator and food cupboards and microwave and dishes? Knowing that anxiety, stress, high blood pressure and lack of sleep lower the immune system made me even worse.
The only reason I was glad I was "isolated" was that no one saw me freak out. It would not have been good for morale. I breathed into paper bags, paced around the back yard at night, did yoga, tried to meditate, etc. That was two days ago, and the adrenaline is still in my body, waking me up every couple of hours, when I try to sleep. The only thing that worked was to not worry about all those poor sick and frightened people, and dying old people, because there was nothing I could do. I had to block out the news for a while.
To change the perspective:
--Since 60% of the population were predicted to NOT get sick, then the odds are that we won't get sick.
--There are death estimates of 3% and 8% from two different sources, of the death rate for older people. That means 92-97% survival rate. People operate under those odds.
--If we wash our hands, stay 10 feet away, etc, theorectically there is zero chance of getting sick. It takes a lot of the virus, for instance a prolonged personal contact, or kissing, or caring for a sick person without washing your hands after, or putting dirty hands into your mouth, nose, or eyes, to infect you. No one's going to do that, now.
--Definitely the sanitary precautions are habits we need to keep always, for a lifetime, anyway (except for staying 10-feet away from everyone, and doing fun things with a crowd, and hugging your loved ones)
--I'm a germ-phobic hypochondriac, and it's nice to know that others are going to be more careful about spreading diseases.
--The pandemic will end. Either it will go away in its season for a while, or a vaccine will be available, or an anti-flu treatment will be developed, or enough people will become immune.
--Children get through the illness very well! Some have hardly any symptoms at all.
--Their younger parents do well, also. My adult kids are extremely healthy, and can take good care of their little ones.
--All the adult males in my family are set up to work from home, now, and will be able to stay safe and help the moms. My DIL works in a private office, which is safe.
--I have my own bedroom and bathroom, with windows to ventilate. Even if the illness is prolonged because of age, I won't infect anyone else, because I will be careful. My kids can grocery shop, and leave food at my door. I can wash my dishes in my sink before leaving them outside the door.
--I have my own car to drive myself to the doctor if I have to, or to the drive-up pharmacy.
--Amazon, some grocery stores, some drug stores deliver.
--When I calm down, I can read all the books in my room, watch TV, e-mail and facetime with people on the computer. There's a couple of online classes I want to take, if I become calm enough to concentrate.
--Try not to be so VERY ALONE, that you feel lonely, abandoned, or freaked-out. We're all in this together.