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Date: April 28, 2020 09:30PM
Seeing how my kids seem to be turning out I am feeling like a complete failure as a parent. And now I have to live with this mess cause it keeps coming back home for the rest of my life.
Does anyone else feel like this? I want to make it a rule that they are not welcomed back home. My past goal was to always make sure I have some sort of living accommodations just in case my kids needed to come back home. But now my retirement house plans are down to about 120 square feet. Does this make me a terrible parent?
So anyway I just really need to vent about the current situation. My 19 year old daughter thinks I am a complete loser and all of my choices are utterly pathetic. She makes sure to tell me at every chance she gets. She ensures to follow that up with the your pathetic I wish you were dead stare. Now I can handle this for a while, like short little visits, you know Sunday dinner. But COVID cancelled school and she CHOSE to come here. I didn't ask. I didn't beg. I did't encourage her to come here, but she wanted to and I let her.
I saw what was happening in the world and prepared the basic necessities for 90 days for me and my two kids. That included buying foods that they like to eat that I do not. That included getting things that would make their stays here comfortable if they needed to come here. It was a lot of work.
So anyway she is here and has done nothing but complain and wine and be unhappy. She does not help out. But I found one thing I can make her do-unload the dishwasher when the dishes run out. I stopped doing it when I found out just how awful she was going to be do live with. She is absolutely unhappy and lets me know it. Well unless she is socializing with her friends. Then she all light and laughter. The few times she has stopped ignoring me (well other than to complain whine and insult anything I do) every single time it is like she planned in advance to get upset at me scream and cry and run to her room. It is so crazy I think I need to video to show her what is going on. She was supposed to be leaving for a summer job, so I have done my best just to let her be a complete ass without saying anything.
For the last six weeks I have just been waiting for her to leave. It is really rather funny how she thinks I want her to be here and that she is somehow gracing me with her presence when all I want her to do is leave. OMFG. They cancelled the dam job today. OMFG. I cannot have my entire summer ruined by this rotten brat. I had plans that even with the pandemic could have happened.
I've been telling her for weeks to start applying for jobs just in case. I've offered to pay half of a student housing contract just to get her out of here because she absolutely HATES me and HATES being here. So today she tells me the job is cancelled. I'm like Walmart is hiring. You can move out get a job. She loses it screaming and crying runs to her room. I told her you have done nothing but make sure I know how much you hate being here and how much you hate my pathetic loser ass. Essentially she needs to get a job and GET OUT.
Ugggggg. Sorry but I really needed to vent. Has anyone else dealt with this? Each time I think things might turn around, I feel tricked.