Posted by:
Freefromtheshackles
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Date: July 26, 2022 01:06PM
I feel free. Today I decided to block the numbers of those who only contact me to try and get me to go to church! I'm even a little excited. I know that's weird,but it's the way I feel. I'd been having the thought but you know..guilt crept up. THAT was when it occurred to me these people have never been true actual real friends. We've never socialized outside a church event.
I was a convert I never paid tithing or fully bought into the whole thing the way some members seem to, but I did feel the spirit..though I wonder if that was sometimes just the spirit of people being nice to me. I have met some good people and kept in touch. I do like aspects and some teachings. Most of those people moved away. Part of me wants to pull my name from the rolls;another part of me feels like that's dramatic or something. Mostly, I don't want to go anymore and I don't want to be bothered about it! We moved a d didn't share our address so they can't really come here. Anyway, I really feel for that version of myself that needed to be told I was a good and worthy person by a bunch of seemingly shiny happy people. I don't want to drink or have affairs, but I want to feel free to practice my spirituality on my own terms without questions or interviews (I hate those interviews). I was always worthy. That's all.