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catnip
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Date: May 20, 2023 02:00AM
All I ever wanted to do was to write the Great American Novel. Back when my ex was in Vietnam, sending home $300 per month for our rent and other expenses, I had begun writing and selling short stories to magazines. I even acquired an agent in NY.
I sold about three out of every four stories I wrote, at about $300 per sale. I was living the good life, and was very happy. I lived in SoCal then. The apartment pool was just outside my front door. I swam laps, then went inside for a shower and breakfast, then spent from about ten in the morning until well after midnight curled around my aunt's little old Olivetti. All in all, from beginning the first draft until proofreading and preparing the final draft, took about a week.
In the back of my mind, the novel was beginning to take shape.
Then the future ex got back from Vietnam.
He started screaming that my stories weren't bringing in enough money. He wanted to see a regular paycheck. Jaysus, the fights we had.
I interviewed with the local Social Security office, and they liked me. Mainly, I think, because I already spoke Spanish. (Having been an exchange student in Guadalajara, I can speak Spanish with a Jaliscan accent that would shrivel your ears.) Also, with Social Security, every time the future ex got transferred somewhere, there would be SSA offices there and I could transfer.
At home, every time I tried to settle myself down and work on a story, Himself would start bugging with "You haven't cleaned up the dinner dishes and the house is a pigsty." When my son was born a few years later, I discovered that despite being married, I was a single parent. Himself declined to participate in ANY aspect of baby/child care.
I did manage to write and sell a few more stories after that, but with such intense harassment all the time, I eventually lost the Muse. No more desire to write. When his GF moved in with us "just until she gets her feet under her," I'd had enough. Divorce, remarriage, yada yada.
I always figured that once I was retired, I could write again. But the Muse is gone. No ideas, no desire to run stories through my keyboard. I've tried to force it, but that doesn't work.
So, I'm just a retired Federal paper-shuffler. Sigh. At least the benefits are good and I found a sweetheart who doesn't cheat.