Posted by:
forestpal
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Date: November 03, 2010 04:29AM
Following "The Plan" didn't work for me, though.
I grew up outside the Moridor, and identified more with my PhD father than with my RS Pres Mother. I loved athletics and education, which landed me a scholarship to BYU. My love of learning kept me from being completely dominated by the cult. It also led to a great career--eventually.
The plan was to be a SAHM, stay athletic, play with my children, volunteer at their schools, be a team mother, have a beautiful home, entertain, garden, read, have two boys and two girls, a cat and a dog. I married a man who had the exact same dream, only he wanted to live by the beach, far from home, which was fine with me! I lived my dream, in the sunshine, and enjoyed every minute of it! I was--and am--a domestic homebody at heart. I love my children more than anything else in life. To be a SAHM would still be my first choice.
Fortunately, I graduated from BYU, and went to two other "real" universities for advanced degrees, and had my foot in the door, career-wise. I had a brief disatrous temple marriage, before I married the father of my children. We had an OK marriage, with him in charge, doing what he wanted to do. I would leave the kids with babysitters to go to parties, away on ski weekends, out on the boat with friends, etc. with my husband. I left the Mormon church for him, early in our marriage.
It is true that a woman can't count on anyone else. DH cheated on me, and completely abandoned me and the children. I had to support my children and go to school at the same time, for three years, in order to qualify to continue with the career I was educated for. It was worth the struggle, though, and I am living another dream, now, the dream of a career that makes me happy and that serves others as well. I also have the flexibility to be with my children when they need me. My children have turned out very well, so far, so good! My biggest personal regret is that when DH abandoned us, I was in a state of panic, and was lured back into the Mormon cult for a few years.
I feel like I did it all, because I had to.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 11/03/2010 04:31AM by forestpal.