Posted by:
judyblue
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Date: July 29, 2011 05:25PM
It really depends on your family. My family is pretty laid-back. My parents always raised us to use our brains, and to think for ourselves. When we were little, my dad would give us little logic puzzles and quizzes to pass the time whenever we drove anywhere, or during dinner.
When I told my mom I didn't believe it, she asked me, "Is it that you believe that it isn't true, or that you just don't think you have a testimony?" "It's not true," I answered, so abruptly I surprised even myself. My mom nodded and said, "I'm proud of you for not just taking other people's word for it. I know the church is true. But I understand that you need to figure it out for yourself." (BTW, my mom is a REMARKABLE woman.) That conversation happened 3 years ago, and we haven't ever talked about it again since.
I was also worried about telling my little brother, because he's always been the most TBM out of family. He was on a mission when I left. I waited until a couple of months after he got home, for a bit of the shine to wear off, and then I told him. He was surprised, and I think a bit hurt. All he said was, "I don't really know how you want me to respond to this." I told him I didn't expect anything, but that I thought he had a right to know, and that if/when he ever did want to talk about it in detail I'd be willing. He said okay, then changed the subject. That conversation was over 2 years ago, and we haven't ever talked about it again since.
My sister and I never really talked about it. I knew she knew I wasn't going to church anymore, but we never had a conversation about why. When I moved to an apartment a few blocks away from hers, she wondered aloud whether or not we would be in the same ward. "Doesn't really matter," I said. "Either way I won't be going." She shrugged and said, "Whatever." A few months later, I talked her into going with me and some of my friends to the Pride festival. She saw me sampling some other people's drinks, and a few days later her RS presidency showed up at my door. I turned them away, but never confronted her about it. That was 2 years ago, and we haven't ever talked about it again since.
My dad was the only one that I talked to more than once about my apostasy, because he's the only one that asked me about it. He would wait until we were alone, and then ask me slightly random questions like, "So what do you DO on Sundays now?" or "Was that a wine bottle I saw on your counter? Did you drink the wine?" When I skipped a cousin's baptism just a few months after I left the church, he and I had a long talk about why I just didn't feel like I could stand to be there. About two years after I left, he made a passing comment, "You know, for a while there you seemed really angry about the church. I'm glad you aren't anymore." That was about a year ago, and we haven't ever talked about it again since.
So yes, sometimes there are happy endings. My family and I just have this unspoken rule about mutual respect. I won't bring up the reasons why I think their religion is stupid, and they won't bring up the reasons why they think my apostasy is stupid. I'm different from them, and that's okay (for the most part. They have all put a lot more energy into trying to convince me to eat meat than they ever would ito trying to convince me to go back to church :D). I think if both parties agree to this kind of arrangement (either just by understanding or by clear, vocalised, or even written intentions), it can turn out well. There is more to my family than just the fact that they are mormons, and there's more to me than just the fact that I'm not.
Only you can know if your family will take it well. I knew my family wouldn't disown me or be outright horrible to me, but even they surprised me with how well they took it.