Posted by:
melissa3839
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Date: November 11, 2010 11:29PM
To be honest, even though I have left the church (but still believe in God/Christ)-- I have always struggled with apocalyptic fears. Even before, when I was inactive from the church for 15 years.
All my life, I've had issues with depression and anxiety attacks. So people telling me about war, 9/11, the recent earth quakes, asteroid possibilities, 2012, and all that crap... I was told NEVER to live in a big city, or anywhere near one, because if a war ever broke out those would be the firs places to be hit!! lol. Even thought that's actually true, still, it held me back a lot. I have decided that I just don't want to listen to it anymore.
I would love to live in a big city, but I'm still afraid to for the above reason, lol.
These fears have already robbed me of several dreams. And taken away 90% of my desire to try hard in life and succeed.
Honestly, there were a lot of things I considered doing, but never did it simply because I was afraid of war, or the apocalypse. Things like:
-- Making a career of my love for art, sculpting, makeup, etc.-- like becoming a graphic makeup artist for movies, making monsters and such. Always loved that idea.
-- Becoming a great video editor. I LOVE to edit videos and add special effects. I would have really loved to study it in college, make it to Hollywood, and gotten a job working in film, helping to design commercials, movie trailers, or edit movies for the big screen, etc.
-- Graphic computer designs, I'm a total computer nerd, and I love designing things on the computer. I would have loved to study how to create computer animation, maybe use it to make cartoons, or special effects in movies.
Gosh there is just so much I would have loved to do, but never got the chance because these fears held me back (and even continue to!). People who teach apocalyptic crap are just horrible, and they REALLY need to stop!
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 11/12/2010 12:25AM by melissa3839.