Posted by:
latterdayslave
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Date: November 29, 2011 08:13PM
I recently moved to Provo to attend BYU about 6 months ago. I began to have doubts about 2 years ago when I researched the history of the church. I felt guilty for doing so and quickly pushed the info and feelings of uncertainty aside. Well, they are back now and I don't know what to do. The majority of my friends are Mo and I feel like I can't talk to anyone about what I'm going through. I know I'll be judged. However, i feel like it is not their fault, the church has conditioned them to judge others who question or doubt the faith.
I have to go to BYU everyday and 'pretend' to believe the same as every other prideful student.
I feel like I finally see light and truth in my life and this scares me because it is opposite of everything i have been taught since birth.
Thanks to everyone for your courage to leave and for your encouraging posts. I have been reading this recovery board for awhile now and finally decided to join.
Glad I have found an outlet and support group :)