Posted by:
BahBahBlacki
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Date: December 05, 2011 03:30PM
I haven't prayed since I resigned in August. Well, actually, a little prayer. A Christian friend offered to say one with me...but I felt nothing. Prayer had never really made sense to me. It was intimidating more than anything, and I always just brushed it aside. But when a religious friend asks for me to keep them and their families in my prayers during their great times of need or perils, I more or less just think out positivity to...the universe. Or something. Just warm it up in my heart with sincerity and then lay it out to any higher being that saw fit to 'hear' it.
I'm not sure if I actually believe in God, or any gods. However, I do like to think that beyond this life I'll be reunited with loved ones who have since passed away. That it's not just an abrupt end to any kind of existence. I'm just very torn between the concept of there being any kind of god at all. Mormonism taught me to fear their god. That never settled well with me.
I guess I'm still getting adjusted to no church life, to be able to truly act and speak out on my own. But what does that make me 'title' wise? I know it just really doesn't matter in the end. But people here have a neat tendency to show others that there is not only two sides to a coin, but a tiny 'ledge' that runs between them.
I would like to hear any thoughts, stories, whatever!