Posted by:
LineUponLine
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Date: December 12, 2011 12:21AM
Admittedly I am struggling to remove myself from morgbot thinking. Sometimes its big transformations, and sometimes it's just the smallest of things. Like... when something "luckily" happens I still have the ingrained instinct to think "thank you Heavenly Father for helping me out!"
This past week I've caught myself doing this on several different occasions. In that moment I think what if I just said "Thank me" instead. As in "Yahoo you pulled it off, or Thank goodness for a little bit of luck." Ashamedly I still feel pangs of guilt for even considering those thoughts. On the other hand, I feel silly for thinking God would care if my cow jumps back over the fence into my pasture saving me from difficulty in getting her back, and liability for problems she might cause.
Anyone else struggle with this? or are these the obvious pangs of a newb trying to shrug off years of indoctrination.