Posted by:
Raptor Jesus
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Date: December 14, 2011 05:26PM
You asked me about my "spiritual" journey, and I wanted to respond here because I thought it might end up being helpful for others.
Plus, I love attention.
I wouldn't say that I went straight from Mormonism to atheism - but I could see how people would view it that way.
When I got home from my mission and started reading Hugh Nibley - I read a lot of his writings that dealt with early Christianity, the sects, the writers, the beliefs. And it was all very confusing. Nibley was out to cherry pick ideas and stretch them to fit into the Mormon "box" and because of this, there were a lot of things I just didn't understand and wouldn't understand unless I did reading on my own.
So, I started reading more about early Christianity. Mormons claim that they are a modern version of Christ's original church; therefore, the church should look really close to early Christianity. But Nibley wasn't out to TEACH people about early Christianity, he was just referencing here a little, there a little, everywhere a stretched reference reference.
And when I started reading about early Christianity from actual reputable scholars, I was shocked, and my super duper special testimony was shaken up quite a bit.
There were just some undisputable facts that CLEARLY no one had ever brought up in church that I had no clue about.
I had NO idea that the original four gospels were not eye witness accounts (nor could they be). I had no idea that they were written decades (and up to a century) later. And I had no idea that some of them were only in fragments that were copies of copies of copies of copies - and the fragments contradicted themselves in LOTS of places.
So translation wasn't just about getting a few words right - it was about getting a lot of other stuff right too.
While Mormonism hinted at these problems with Christianity, I was blown away by the depth at the problems and that the Mormon answers wouldn't fit all the problems with Christianity.
I started reading atheist literature and also looking at the history of the church while reading more about the history of Christianity. The real histories.
Just like with Mormonism, the problems of Christianity all "went away" when I said, "Maybe it's all just made up."
Boom went the dynamite. It all made sense.
The only thing that bothers me (and I really only see it rarely), is that occasionaly a Christian poster will make a remark that Mormons go atheist for some stupid reason like we "break" spiritually or some sh*t like that.
It's the same kind of reasoning Mormons have about us leaving because being offended or wanting to sin or blah blah blah.
Nope. I studied my way out of Christianity. The same "loss of faith" that I experienced in Mormonism is the exact same I had with Regular Jesus.
Some people want to continue on with faith. But as far as I am concerned - keep it in the realm of faith. If someone wants to step into the world of evidence? It's not going to go well for them.
Also, I'm not "broken" because I don't believe in Regular Jesus. Nor did I "break" in order to "reject" him.