Posted by:
babyraptorjesus
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Date: January 12, 2012 03:00AM
Lately I've been reading this site among others, watching videos, and talking to a few ex mormon friends a bit more than usual and I have become angry. Extreme anger that I'm losing sleep over. Vile abhorrent rage. I've gotten in so many arguments with my family and old friends lately. My old young mens teacher (who told us EVERY sunday "the most important thing you can do in your life is go on a mission") came by on Sunday (I haven't gone to my home ward in well over a year) and asked me to go to lunch with him. I said no because I know why he's asking me. He asks me again and I say no. This repeated a few more times. I just clenched my jaw and withheld so much anger. I've also been going over a lot of hypothetical conversations which make me equally angry. I don't know what to do, obviously I could just stop thinking about this but that won't solve anything, just brush it off and wait for it to come back.
My question is what can I do to make myself less angry? I don't want to stop learning about the church because I feel like I should why I don't believe in it anymore. What do you guys do to avoid becoming angry?