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Date: January 13, 2012 04:34PM
It's pretty obvious from my facebook profile that I'm not into the church anymore, so I've fielded many a question from curious TBMs. For my religious views section of my profile, I put "Religion is Interesting" and left it at that. Basically, by looking at that, combined with the photos of me in bars and wearing "immodest" clothing, my political leanings, and feminist attitudes, anyone with sense is going to know that I'm not doing the church thing anymore.
The super-TBMs haven't been shy about asking, and I've got my standard polite responses. But, I've been really lucky that, as it turns out, a solid portion of the kids I grew up with are also no longer involved in the church and it seems like most of them are really glad to know that I'm out too. I've had a few really great exchanges about Mormon-related issues.
I have had to bring it up a few times with people who didn't figure it out (though it should have been obvious). Those conversations went something like this "I don't know how you feel about the church these days, but I wanted to let you know that I'm not a part of it anymore. It doesn't change how I feel about you though-- I really value our relationship and all the fun we had growing up. It's not about that at all." and then if they were still TBMs, they were either cool about it, or tried to 'reactivate' me, or never responded and defriended me. If they weren't TBM's, they expressed their total relief because they wanted to ask about it but didn't want to stir things up.
I've had some very healing, liberating conversations as a result. One in particular was really special. I met up with a guy I grew up with. He was the younger brother of one of my brother's close friends, and cousin to a few others, and part of a really strong, huge, multi-generational TBM family. As soon as I said that I wasn't in the church anymore, he expressed his total relief and came out to me, and told me that he was so grateful to know that he could truly be himself around. It seriously makes me cry to think about it still. It was really special and it made me feel a great responsibility to respectfully let people know that I wasn't in the church anymore.
So, I'm all about just being frank about it and letting the chips fall where they may. At best, you'll strengthen relationships with people who are able to cope with the real you. At least you end up knowing who your friends are.