Posted by:
myselfagain
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Date: February 07, 2012 04:07PM
It's week 2 into my leaving TSCC saga. The first week I just felt so incredibly relieved and thrilled that I was going to be true to myself and not some guy with a 'mantle' who does not know what is good for me.
Now, I am in the feeling really stupid phase. My DH also joined when I did. He was hoping to be able to continue tithing, and I wasn't sure yet how I felt. After researching more on this site (bless you all for being so open and friendly!) and others and reading about City Creek, the new hotel in Hawaii, and the LDS owned hunting facilities and what a major business TSCC is, we both agree we have paid our last tithe- ever.
Now I can see just how long suffering and patient my non LDS family has been! I know they thought we were crazy but they always for the most part didn't interfere. They made their preferences known, but I always had their love and respect. The craziness stops right here! So many things are opening up to us, and I feel ashamed of trying so hard to be what I thought was right. Some things I never did get a testimony of; VT spying, Joseph Smith, polygamy and marrying 14 year olds, and so much more. I hope I can be kind to myself as this journey continues. I really feel so dumb and gullible right now. I am not stupid, either. I have a good mind, but I think in retrospect that I wanted it to be real. Now it doesn't matter- I am finding out for myself.
Thank ALL of you for listening.