Posted by:
Greyfort
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Date: February 26, 2012 09:08AM
It's partly the LDS Church's fault. They taught me that all other churches, besides theirs, were abominations. That meant that if I ever left the Church, there really was nowhere else to go. That mindset is still there, subconsciously, even once you discover that the LDS Church is a big fat fraud.
I'm embarrassed now when I realize that I used to think of the LDS Church as the University of churches, with other churches being kindergarten, on up to high school, which to me was the Catholic Church, as it's the mother church of all the Protestant break-aways.
Protestant churches to me were always the same thing as the Catholic Church. They just broke away from it. So, if I ever left the Mormon Church, I felt the only place for me to go would be the mother church. But I finally went there for a funeral this past January, and there's no way it's for me. That never would have worked out
Anyway, the other thing is that the LDS Church taught us that they were the one and only true way to God. When you discover that it's a fraud, that is a huge shock to the system. If THEY could be wrong, then what about everyone else?
You've now developed critical thinking skills. So you stop and think, "Well, hey. What about the Bible? If the Book of Mormon is a fraud, then what about the Bible?" So I next turned my attentions there.
I set up to study, study, study. I read everything, from the history of the Bible, to even the history of the Devil. I learned that things like Noah's Flood could never have happened. Then other stories in the Bible turned out not to be real as well, such as Jerusalem being a tiny village at the time that King David was supposed to be ruling over a huge kingdom.
There are talking snakes, pigs running over cliffs, water turning into wine, burning bushes which don't really burn, a man walking on water, virgin births, etc.
Then one day, someone posted the words, "Anyone who doesn't believe in Evolution, hasn't studied it." I thought, "Oh, dear! I'd better study it then." I'd simply dismissed it, because I'd been told it wasn't real. So, I studied it, and much to my amazement discovered that it's not even a theory anymore. It's real. DNA alone proves it absolutely. I couldn't dismiss it anymore.
I began to catch up on scientific knowledge that I'd missed out on over the years and realized that it's a fascinating study. I'm just a knowledge magnet now. I can't get enough of discovering the fascinating bits of information to be found out there now. I no longer have anyone saying, "You shouldn't be reading that. Stay away from that knowledge." I can study anything I want to and I love it. There's a big, fascinating world out here - outside of the box of Mormonism and even religion itself. I can't be contained in a specific set of beliefs anymore.
And so, that is my personal journey. I realized that the God of the Bible would break every rule of Physics that we currently understand. Some would say, "Why throw out the baby with the bathwater?" But what if you drain the water and discover that there was never any baby in the water in the first place?
That's where I am now. It's taking a bit of time to be comfortable with the word 'atheist.' It's something I never wanted to be, to be honest with you.
But I now love truth, more than I need to believe in something just because it's comfortable doing so. I can't call something a belief, unless it comes with at least some credible evidence to back up that belief.