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romy
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Date: March 27, 2012 08:21PM
Since I came to where I am now (out to some, never going back, haven't sent a letter yet) in the past few months I have been feeling so guilty about judging others during my time in the church.
I definitely judged others I would see leave as doing it for convenience or sin because that is what everyone else around me did and the only reason I could see they would want to leave. I hadn't had my eyes opened to a LOT of truths yet and fully believed in the LDS teachings so it really didn't even occur to me people would leave over doctrine, just that they would stop caring and ignore it to make themselves feel better about going against the teachings. Well, or they were being taken down by some anti literature that they were fooled by and was just there to be a big meany. Man was I a douche.
When a friend told me a guy I liked in my youth jumped the fence to get out of the MTC I thought he must be psycho. I thought, geez, if you want to leave just tell them and they will let you leave. Now after I have a better understanding of the pressures that made him probably go unwilling there in the 1st place and the craziness of the temple he had just been put through I think differently and with empathy for what a terrible mental state he must have been in.
I feel really bad now for mis judging plenty of people that indeed did leave over doctrine and regret gossiping about 'did you hear so and so went apostate? Wow, his poor wife, I would probably want a divorce if I was her' Note, I wasn't married when saying this but I still should have realized a belief change didn't need to mean the end of a marriage.
Overall I just feel bad for things I've thought and said and other religions I put down while thinking I was so important to know it all and go every Sunday and look down on those who only went on Christmas and Easter. I know plenty of mo's will judge me the same way now so I guess what goes around comes around.
Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 03/27/2012 08:51PM by romy.