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vulturetamer
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Date: April 01, 2012 01:57PM
I spent part of this morning re-reading some extremely hurtful emails I received from my family about three years ago. At the time, I had made the decision to divorce my husband, and to be with a man whom I admittedly, was involved with while still married. I still live with the shame of breaking my marriage covenant to my then-spouse. But I have very slowly picked up the pieces of my life, and have become someone I actually like better. Saying it has been difficult would be an extreme understatement. I came here trying to understand why I was so severely shunned by what I considered true friends and strong family relationships. I have found exactly the perspective I was seeking.
When I read back over each email, my heart broke again, realizing they truly cannot accept me in my sin. Nor will they accept my husband. But reading it again, realizing what I have learned here about the psychology of a tbm, it helped me to know that it isn't all me. It's them, too. They are so entrenched in their belief system, that they cannot possibly be compassionate or supportive for their village sinner.
It makes much more sense now, given the time that has passed, and the things I've learned since. So thank you exmo board. I know some of you thought I was a troll when I first posted my story. Probably because I used so many abbreviations, so as not to come up on a Google search.
Anyway, I am tempted to post the emails here, but am afraid for fear of being recognized. I will think about it. But either way, having some understanding has been nothing short of relief.