But I'm "out" as a non-believer. I resigned my priesthood and teaching assignments, explicitly because I don't believe in it. Bishop let me keep my scout calling, but even that's bugging me. They see it as priesthood training. I don't have to teach any church doctrine, but they have posters that match scout ranks with priesthood ranks, and there's pressure on us to pace their scout advancements with their priesthood advancements. Mainly I hate the obligatory tone of it. The boys are just expected to do it as a duty. So I'm still complicit.
anon Wrote: ------------------------------------------------------- > Really? > > I'm a nevermo but I have a friend who's a recent > convert. Hard core TBM. > > He's the librarian and I don't think that it's a > punishment in his case.
Your correct, but your friend is a Newbie to the church, so the Nursery is safe place to stick him until he's brainwashed enough to take on more significant roles in the church.
I'm long gone now, but for several years I was a closeted ex-mo. My callings included YM President, Sunday School Teacher, Ward Mission Leader, and Stake High Councilman.
After I asked the BP to get the Stake to release me from my calling I have been happy to not have a calling. He didn't want me to get released because he knew he wouldn't see me at church again. And he was right.
It is a wonderful feeling to cut the ties that bind you to them.
I think I am now what they call the Ward Apostate.
It has been heaven. They don't call me to clean the building, don't invite me to Ward Christmas party, etc. They know I am a lost cause. They tried love bombing me a few months ago but it didn't work. I'm done. And very happy.
Deluded, you must be suffering big time if you are serving as EQP. I prophesy that you will ask to be released in the near future.
Deluded you certainly have a big calling. Guess your bishop/SP aren't tuned into that discernment? I hope you are considering leaving if it's possible without wrecking your family or career.
During my tenure in the church I had just about every calling a woman can hold. So glad to be out, but I remember trying to teach Sunday school when I no longer had a testimony.
I quickly became irritated to teach what I no longer believed, then I became disgusted by it. I was teaching crap to a bunch of impressionable teenagers, and I was lost about what to do. DH didn't want me saying anything to anyone about my disbelief, so we would not be shunned, and I agreed not to say anything.
We were planning on moving so I kept teaching until that time.
Fast forward years later........I don't keep quiet anymore......and we are shunned. (We live in Happy Valley.) I don't go around talking about it, I just don't nod my head and say yes if anyone expects me to believe the fairy tale/folklore of JS and the eternal orgy.
Finance clerk - the perfect job. No one bothers me, I can skip meetings, I enjoy paper shuffling, I see where the $ goes, etc. TBM wife is in Primary (ouch).