About 4:00am this morning...I wasn't even thinking about RM, RFM, nightmares, or anything related. It suddenly dawned on me that nightmare begins with an N...
The really disturbing stuff ended a few years ago but I still have these strange, innocuous little dreams about the church. Like passing the sacrament and then walking out of the church, still holding the tray. Short with no trauma or craziness involved but still weird. I don't know if they'll ever go away.
I have a recurring nightmare that starts with me being called, in current times, on a mission. I quit my job, leave my wife and kids, and go to the MTV. The whole time, my dream "self" is having a horrible inner dialog about how I need to go home. I never get home in my dream....I always wake up.
I'm 47 years old and have this dream at least every few months since the age of 22. My nephew, a TBM, has the same dreams about going back to South America. I think we both have some form of PTSD.
In my last mission dream I refused to teach discussions with my companion, then ditched him at bed time and went back and told the family the truth. A good time was had by all. :)