So glad you are ok and seeking help. Change is not easy, but hang in there. You deserve to take care of yourself, life can be good and you will get there. Please hang in.
Thank you all for your support. I really appreciate it because I need to change. Yesterday I spent most of the time with my family. Talked about the situation. Got a hair cut for the first time since 2010. Afterwards I thought I looked more clean, felt pretty satisfied with it. Making small changes like you all adviced me to do. Need a new start in life and will seek help this week. When I worked it was easier to hide away all bad feelings and anxiety, but after weeks without work the distractions does not work.
These are some of my goals. Losing weight to feel healthier, I got a bit high blood pressure, stop drinking.
Are you my son? No, because I didn't see you yesterday. But if you were, I'd be very pleased that you are taking some of the advice. I know it's hard. Believe in you. We do!