Anagrammy prayed for an update, and I will answer her prayers. Even at my own peril.

I have been a little hesitant to give an update because the last time I simply came on here to say that bad shit was going down in my life, bad shit went down on the board.

A few posters decided that my thread was really all about them. A few of my "followers" came back on and reminded me that I still needed "to kill myself." Which was especially uncool given what happened two days after I posted.

There was even some passive aggressive philosophical discussion dealing with whether or not "popular posters" should share details about their lives.

And that was really fucking bizarre. The whole threads that happened after I posted were so fucking bizarre to me, because my original thread was nothing more than, "Hey guys, I got sick." And what happened afterwards was many posters saying appropriate things like, "Dude, that fucking blows. I'm sorry." But then there was all the shit that happened with the responses of, "Well, I'M NOT SICK! What the fuck is wrong with you???"

And then fighting broke out.

So, yeah. Hesitation.

Well, I'm still sick. In fact, I am quite sick. I have lost more weight. I can't stand up completely straight without needing to dry heave because of the severity of pain. And I'm constantly nauseated enough that I puke at least three times a day. But I'm timing my "meals" in a way that I don't actually throw up food.

I finally got to see my specialist last week as well as Dr. XX simply due to the fact that I told work about my symptoms - I'm not traveling for them right now because I have to figure this shit out. Tomorrow I meet with my boss because I have already used up all my sick and vacation days. And I mean vacation days. The days that you are supposed to use to kick Donald Duck right in his giant stuffed ass at Magic Kingdom. Except I've used them at doctor's appointments and being at home so I can throw up mucus in my own goddamn toilet. I'm not sure what will happen in that meeting just yet. But I can't physically do most of my job right now, and I don't know what we are going to do about that.

I had a test last week that demonstrated that I'm not digesting food. It just sits in my stomach for a long, long time. I will learn more about what that means and where to go from here next week. But it made perfect sense as to why I have been living with the bizarre paradoxical feeling of being both full and starving at the same time. Food is just sitting in my stomach being broken down. Not being absorbed, just broken more and more down.

And, so, there you go. Perhaps even more insane shit will come out of another post of "Hey, guys. I'm still sick."



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Sorry to hear that you are so sick. I hope they figure out what's going on and how to fix it. Good luck with the meeting with your boss. Maybe you can go on a medical leave of absence or something.

Hang in there. There are those on here who DO CARE how you are doing. I hope they find something that can help.

I type medical records and the thing I've taken note of over the years is that doctors are guessing MOST of the time--just like on the show "House." I hope somehow they can help you.

I cannot believe you have been both terribly sick and intoxicatingly funny at the same time. Your posts have been over the top. Whatever your body is doing, the amazingly hilarious intellect is still there. I always need a good dose of it, so hang in there. Good luck.

Generally speaking, RJ, if what's bothering you is physical, it's easier to cure. Again, this is a generalization. So....hope for the best and endure the worst. I wish you well.

Your mother was a hamster and your father smelt of elderberries!



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Get in touch with you're HR office and start the paperwork for FML. (if you are in the US)

I'd like to come up with an expletive filled, sarcastically non-denigrating, funny Raptorian response, but I'm afraid I'd miss my mark.

Hope you feel better.

I really hope I never get truly sick because that's when Mormons go after you. It happened to me in the MTC a lot and still happens with TBM family.

"Oh you're ill? You know why right? It's because you don't have enough faith to be healed!"

So they see a guy like you who is an outspoken exMo and they're like, "See I told you you'd face the wrath of Regular Jesus! He died for your sins, and now he's torturing you for not being obedient!"

Regular Jesus is something of a sadist.

I'm not a doctor but this I know...digestive surgery issues are a real challenge because opiate pain meds paralyze your digestive tract. So you have a digestive problem, you fix it with surgery and you are you then are in pain; you take pain meds that fuck with your digestive tract, and then you have a new digestive problem. For reference, look up what happened to Elvis.

Perhaps you can be prescribed a non-opiate/opiod pain med to give that stomach of yours a chance to heal.

Hoping you can find the source of the problem and rectify it. I'm rooting for you and your doctors.

No one who has not lived with chronic pain or illness can possibly understand. Glad to hear that your docs may be closing in on the problem.

Get checked for Crohn's disease among other things... I've had two friends who've had it...

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/crohns-disease/DS00104/DSECTION=symptoms

SL Cabbie Wrote:
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> Get checked for Crohn's disease among other
> things... I've had two friends who've had it...
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That was my first guess as well. The pain can be lessened
and there are ways to bypass digestion for nourishment.
But treating the symptoms is only a beginning.

I hope he can find a way out of this.

That's horrible, RJ. I'm sorry you've been so ill... ((hugs))

Listen. Peoples insecurities make them post some dumb ass shit. You are a deity, you should be able to see that a mile away. :) In other news, daffodils are sprouting in my garden after a heinous and dark winter. I hope that can be used as a metaphor for your situation soon.

If the doctor(s) haven't an answer for you, find another one! Are you running a fever with this? How do you do with liquids?

Being in pain all the time sucks large dead fish. One of the biggest reasons is because it changes you. It takes over your damn life until everything you are, say and do is through this malevolent haze of agony.

The weight loss sucks too... people don't realize that. Being horrendous skinny is actually painful, too. Seats are freaking hard and your clothes look like you're a little kid trying on big people clothes.

Tell StalkerDog™ and he will bite the $#!† out of any flamers or mean people.

That sounds miserable.

Having known with people in with long-standing health issues, sometimes you've got to do a lot of research on your own to try to figure things out (or at least know what symptoms might suggest) and then be persistent with the doctors (in regards to getting appointments, tests, etc). Often, doctors have that 15-30 minutes with you, they take a stab at figuring it out, and then they move on to other patients. We recognized key symptoms after a lot of testing had turned up nothing. In your case, if they can't see the problem in your tissues or lab tests, maybe there is a problem with pain perception. Some people's pain receptors get whacked out so they hurt all the time.

It pays to make sure they know just how badly debilitating your condition is, if they don't already, and that you aren't going to go away until you've got it under control or they refer you to someone who can help you.

Best of luck.

RJ, I'm sorry that you feel so sick. Been there. Once when I had severe gastroenteritis I went down to 107 pounds before I was able to get my stomach under control. My physician told me that another illness had wiped out the lining to my stomach.

Try eliminating milk from your diet. Milk is very caustic to the stomach, and you would be surprised at how many foods have milk in them (most breads, for instance.) My normal breakfast on the no-milk diet was a bagel and jelly. Try it and see if it helps.

Keep us updated on how things are going with you.

There are jackasses in the world, including my own brother. Sorry if you were subjected to abuse. I guess I missed those threads. Boo to jerks!

I hope you feel better soon!

Best wishes RJ. Hope they get the problem resolved soon and you're back to normal (pain free) health.

Sorry to hear you received personal attacks. Most of us here have nothing but admiration for you.

Tom

Goddamn...That sounds truly horrible. Stomach issues can take over your entire life when you don't know what's causing them. I have friends who have to be obsessive about what they eat, otherwise they end up in the ER with excruciating abdominal pain. A lady in my pottery class can't have soy (along with corn,wheat, dairy...) and you wouldn't believe how many foods have soy in them!

Hopefully the doc can figure out what's going on and then you can start to manage it. It will probably be a lot of trial and error to find out what foods and situations will cause these problems.


I would think at this point with your work they would go with short term disability, but some employers will fight you tooth and nail on that issue. Sorry you have to deal with all this bullshit.

Perhaps my dancing nude outside ynder the cloud covered moon in my backyard will please the gods. I will do it. If you feel better tomorrow, you'll know it worked.

Honestly, I do feel bad for you, and care very much. I'm not attentive enough on this board to see any of the negative shit others have posted. I don't know how someone could do that and live with themselves.

I sincerely hope you will be recovered soon.

There is a book called "The Makers Diet" By Dr. Jordan Rubin. He was so sick and they tried everything. His family sent him to specialists all over the world. In 6 months he was cured and gained his weight back. He has a before and after picture. Great book. Hope you have a healing soon.

May all the gods whoever were bless you and make you better.

May all the doctors caring for you be enlightened.

May you begin feeling better fast.

And may you continue entertaining us all with your witty posts.

(yes, you may)

If I can offer my unsolicited advice, what you really need is a steady diet of girl-girl porn and whiskey.



I command you to feel better.

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> If I can offer my unsolicited advice, what you
> really need is a steady diet of girl-girl porn and
> whiskey.
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All kidding aside, I do NOT recommend alcohol!
Not until they have arrived at a definite diagnosis.
It could be just fine, or it could do some really bad
harm. Please don't have any until you know for sure if it's okay... OK?

The porn is fine, howsomever!

Wow, that's a truly harrowing situation. Lots of good thoughts are coming your way.

Sorry to know that trollish a$$holes have been messing with you. It's sad but not surprising that some people strip themselves of human decency when they engage anonymously.

The sickness roiling inside of them is noxious as hell, and they make sure everybody feels it, too. Bastards.

The worst part, in my view, besides the terrible emotional toll on the target, is the chilling effect these enactments can have on genuine dialog for everybody. I'm glad that this community can discuss these things openly, and that Raptor Jesus has the courage to keep posting about his life.

Be well, Raptor Jesus!

I nearly went to the ER Thursday night with stomach pain. Too little sleep, too little food, too much coffee. I felt stabbing pain in my solar plexus and my entire abdomen hurt like hell. It is still tender. I don't know how RJ stands the pain he's having. He has it nearly constantly. I hope the docs figure this out quickly and help you, RJ. I'd like to go out to lunch again for tethered goat when you're up to it.

So, if your gut is not processing food, does that mean oral medications are not being processed either and therefore are of no help? Crap, if that's true.



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They needed to get a handle on this and start getting you better weeks ago. Hoping this happens and soon.

Also sorry about the work complications.

And the nasty posters?

I think some are jealous and others are still TBM enough to do the victim blame game. Sad that fellow exmos who aren't interested in being supportive can't just shut up when someone is having a hard time.

Good luck with all of this.

Ignore the assholes. You actually mean a lot to my husband and me. Your amazon book really helped us see the humor and craziness in tscc and we were able to laugh at the pain of leaving for the first time.

I hope you feel better soon.

Please get well, Raptor Jesus. I hope you find the right treatment.