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brokenwings
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Date: May 15, 2013 01:55AM
http://exmormon.org/phorum/read.php?2,890590,891761#msg-891761Well it has taken me a few days to get back here to give an update. I had been reading and re-reading all of the advise given here and was treading carefully though this. As one person stated here “there seem to be a lot of dynamics in this situation” was a very true statement. Much more than I would dare to go into here because honestly my heart just cant bear treading back into all of it.
Aaron had not really been in our lives for the past six years because of being in prison and then because of his being unable to leave the state of his parole. And when he returns we are hopeful that he has changed, we saw signs that he had….well all except for my 2nd born son, who tried to warn me but sometimes I guess we have to plow head on into that brick wall before we wake up.
Aarons father with whom I was divorced when Aaron was five was diagnosed with a narcissistic personality disorder along with a bipolar disorder.. Aaron’s father disappeared with him when he was six years old and we did not locate them until he was almost nine years old.
The road after that was very hard, always has been with him. Acting out, illegal activity, juvenile detention, treatment centers.
After he was released this last time from prison, we were watchful, hopeful and encouraging of the progress we saw in him. Of course that was from a distance of 18 hours away and phone conversation and such. At first when he returned to the area a year ago everything was going good, good communication, good interaction, very positive…and it because of that, I allowed Elizabeth to go down there for spring break and spend it with him and his wife and children. It was after that return that we begin seeing red flags going off….he began acting like he was out to “fix” all of us. Then as we were discussing Elizabeth coming for the summer and me asserting myself on some issues that the other side of him that we remembered from the past began to rise to the surface.
The past few days have been extremely difficult as Elizabeth and I have talked and I was sharing some of my concerns with her. She opened up and begin showing me text messages he has been sending her since her return from spring break. And basically he has been attempting to sabotage are relationship and make himself her savior.
As someone else here said “its time to take the gloves off”. Well they came off and it wasn’t pretty….he is not use to being confronted on his behavior and in doing that today, well it was emotionally draining. It is a very difficult thing to really come to terms with the ideal that you can not have someone in your life, when that someone is your child. It is painful as I write this. And yes I guess I had to run head on into that brick wall before I could see that abuse comes in many forms and as with his father I had been allowing this child to abuse me for years and years.
But this has also brought Elizabeth and I along with her sister and brother even closer to each other…because we have all been sharing and talking the past few days.
But Im also hurting greatly right now….hard to describe…. But ….well im going to stop now as the tears come.
Peace 2 You All